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"I can't fix him, everybody"
*abuses him worse*
":3c"

Screenshot of text saying 'oh you want a manic pixie dream boy? might I interest you in a depressive goblin nightmare boy'

the neurodivergent experience is having people get really into the idea of you as strange and quirky and then getting really turned off when they realise your brain is just like that and you are not the fun solution to their boring life they were hoping for

I think we, as trans people, really need to start having reckonings with how much we hurt each other and ourselves with a quite intense and pervasive inability to be normal about sex and sexuality.

YouTube video by Ann Coates Sandie Shaw and The Smiths - Jeane (1984)

most superior version of the actual saddest smiths song

"this person will be different" but they aren't because everyone knows I'm not fucking valuable enough to warrant that!!!!

definitely also doesn't help that I get fucking immolated by betrayal trauma every single time I trust another human being. You'd think I'd have learned by now that it's not worth it to trust, but I keep doing it

i'm starting to think maybe parental abandonment had a serious impact on my development. in some other dimension where my mom didn't walk out on us for a stranger (leaving me to take care of my alcoholic dad by myself), there is a version of me that isn't beat down and half-dead from trauma

sitting in the library bsoding out because if I go home I'll cry and I have not accomplished anything but crying in the past few days

"grief comes in waves" but can i please at least stop drowning for a second

i feel like my recent trauma just erased my personality and I'm walking around like a cardboard cutout of myself

As for the #ffxiv Mare situation.... idk, I play on PS5 these days and don't really miss mods much because of how much work they were, vanilla is enough for me now. I get how other RPers especially might be really discouraged by the shutdown but like... eh. People will find a way to make it work

I WILL say I really don't like playing Black Mage in #ffxiv PvP, I think Bard/MCH will always be the class I reach for in that situation

almost to the end of 2.0 on my latest character in #ffxiv, I'm absolutely delighted to play a Black Mage but I was never great at not standing in the bad to begin with so we will see how this goes💀 May try and get some screenshots of him soon because he's a cute old grumpy man

Feelin like the PT sink baby today. No I will not elaborate 😩💅

Going to make some onigiri this afternoon and bring them to the trans baseball game tonight for fiancee so she has something on her stomach, I think I'll dig out my awl and spikes and work on a jacket I abandoned last year while they play (I'm not even remotely a sports person)

It's syllabus day in English 102 and I bet 80% of it is going to be about fucking ChatGPT. Clown world shit

I don't think there's much motivating me but revenge and spite at this point, but that's better than nothing at all.

I really only hate that my personal life decided to fall apart when I decided to get my career in order 🤷‍♂️

Returning to class today, knocking out the last of my prereqs before I can start applying for RDH school or nursing school next year. It's been scary and I have to wonder if this will work out, but it's got to be better than what I was doing before; I was miserable.

I made the mistake of letting one reach out to me once and they groveled and embarrassed themselves apologizing for what a twat they were, and asked me to make art for them someday when they could afford it. I guess at least that was worth a laugh.

I refuse to stay friends with exes, because if they were decent friends and decent people, I wouldn't have broken up with them. Have never once regretted this line of thinking. Life is peaceful.

If you play it like a normal person, Final Fantasy 8 holds up.If you play it like a freak, it's shocking how much freedom a mainstream console RPG gave players in 1999.

Unpopular opinion: the more someone tells me to watch One Piece, the less I care to watch it lmao

ahahaha disregard yesterday's optimism today is shit

It's been about 6 months since something really traumatizing happened to me. I don't know how I'll feel tomorrow but today I feel at peace about it. Sad it happened, sure, and sad to know I'll always have to deal with the aftereffects of this. But I have to appreciate the good days when they happen.

Peace For Tsuyu....

"tsuyu" from ffxiv

"step on me" this, "step on me" that, I just wanna bring her tea when her tummy hurts from too much dango. we are not the same

yotsuyu from ffxiv

fordola from ffxiv

ffxiv: stormblood reminds me how much I love these two... Can't wait to see them again in my current playthrough 😭

the much-maligned Stormblood was my very favorite expansion for all the wonderful character arcs (fordola and yotsuyu my beloveds....) so I bet I'll be really similar!!!

From what I have seen of her she reminds me a lot of my fiancee and so I was immediately like "I'm going to have a gigantic bias for this sweet creature aren't I" 😭
I picked up a new alt and I'm trying to get to DT by next year so I'm very excited tbh!! thank you for sharing your love for her