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Reed also doesn't care overmuch about his name, except for some bitterness over the fact that the Stoneshore children's musically-themed naming conventions were his father's idea. But he's content not to bring up the inspiration behind his name, so it rarely arises in conversation or in his mind.

Eleanore and Ghoa both have similar feelings about their names. Both were named by quasi-parental figures rather than their birth families. They don't have any strong feelings towards their names either way, but they both wonder sometimes what their actual parents would've named them instead.

look, someone's gotta be able to reach the top shelves and it sure as shit ain't gonna be us

its me, i'm the feral writer on the filing cabinet

Combine that with me picking up ARK for the first time and the related "Ooh, new game!" hyper-fixation, which has further pushed FFXIV to the back of my mind for now. I'm hoping that the new patch will re-light my FFXIV spark again, but we'll see!

anyhoo, thanks 4 comin 2 my ted talk, bye frens o/

.. doctor is wrong and I don't actually have ADHD after all and I'm just a lazy stupid piece of shit' impostor syndrome that still cropped up sometimes when I was feeling down. Silver lining!)

I've also just not been feeling burnt out and not any real urge to play FFXIV outside of RP lately, too.

..tired all the fkn time. Because apparently, the very low dosage of Adderall XR that I was started on makes me drowsy af and just overall kinda low energy, especially mentally/socially. (Talk about an unexpected side effect, but hey - at least it's made me shed any last feelings of 'maybe my..

Hey hi hello!

Just wanted to drop another pulse check on here since I've still been largely FFXIV absent.

I'm still getting my new ADHD med situation sorted out. I go back to the doctor in a week or so to get my dosage upped, so I'm hoping that will help even me back out and get me to not be so..

499!

i think that means i'm clear to start the 500 followers pose special raffle thing. if you want in, drop a reply (and, naturally, be a follower teehee). winner gets selected on the 20th!

the prize: i'll pose anything* you want! your OC doing cool stuff, a collab, dealer's choice - you can ->

My nightmare work project is finally done (for now at least) and I can breathe again. Still gonna give my mind some time to rest and recoup before diving headfirst back into RP again, but I already feel so much better hhhhh

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..to the week of 7/14, so that's likely when you'll see me back in full chaotic little gay gremlin force. But until then, you'll still probably see the occasional like, reply, or repost from me.

So anyway, yeah. I'll be seeing you again soon, friendos! ♥

..also the potential that next week could be just as bad, if not worse. Either way - I've just got to make it to July 7th, at the absolute latest.

So, I'm taking just a short little break from FFXIV, RP, and bsky to give my mind and brain some rest. Fortunately, I also bumped up my vacation today..

..mentally and emotionally every day when I get home. Fortunately, it *should* come to an end with a self-imposed deadline on Monday. Realistically, knowing the person who is currently making work Hell on steroids, they'll probably still try to use next week to get what they want, too. So there's..

I know I've been quieter than normal lately on here, so just wanted to pop on to let everyone know that I'm still alive and nothing is (majorly) wrong!

tldr; Work has been consistently more and more stressful over the past few weeks and this week, it's all come to a head. I'm just drained, both..

Thinks about subtle intimacy. Thinks about small touches exchanged between partners. Thinks about the hand resting on a knee or a thigh during a casual chat about anything. A thumb brushing over the skin.

Truer words have never been spoken. Project Management is 75% being jumpscared and filled with deep, gnawing dread every time the 'New Email!' sound plays. 😩

didn't even get to eat my breakfast before the hurricane of chaos hit, booooooo.

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Me: I refuse to let this week be stressful. Gonna stop and get breakfast on the way to the office, ease into the week nice and easy. Good vibes only.

Me opening my email first thing in the morning:

mean right hook.

#almondpose

....this got me wondering, so i just checked my ffxiv playtime on eleanore and oh my god i have over 1,000 hours on her alone and she's not even my 1.0 main LMAO god im afraid to check ghoa's

FFXI
FFXII
The Sims 4

(and also FFXIV but I figure that's a given and No Fun™️.)

such a good elf.... i love her

she.................. sighs

Annnnd I'm leaving early today for no other reason than I want to bc I, too, hate wasting my time. 💅

consultant from hell: *frustrated by consequences of his own inaction* i just hate wasting my time.

me who clearly told him that if we didn't meet a certain deadline weeks ago that it was a lost cause but he insisted we (read: i) continue working on it anyway: my brother in christ, lol.............

Mao Mao #theapothecarydiaries

I think I've backed away from the fantasia-ledge, but.. The Vibes(tm) of #4 match Elle's personality more but............ Face #2 is hotter and ultimately I am just a simple gay creature. So for now, at least, Elle is safe from plastic surgery.