chaoticsleepy

WELL WOULD SHE

...would you?

#almondcomic
and #almondlore i guess :3
ft. @chaoticsleepy.bsky.social!!

apolocheese for posting this three times i seem to be incapable of operating a computer...

Girl is devoured. World blames the girl. Girl wonders how this could happen to her. Girl loses her mind. Girl gets angry. Girl wants to be heard but every time she tells someone, her voice feels coated with tar. Girl feels the wound inside her grow. Girl is afraid the wound will one day get so big she will drown in it. Girl finally tells someone and they ask what did she do to ask for it. Girl doesn't speak of it again. Girl wonders if she deserved it. Girl tries to forget. And tries to forget. And tries to forget. But memories have teeth that become fangs. And fangs have never learned how to let go. Eventually she becomes a locked door. Eventually she learns that she is no feast. Eventually she learns that to devour is better than to be devoured. Eventually she becomes the wolf they fear. - Nikita Gill

It’s the oldest story in the world. The Epstein Files reminded me of this piece I wrote on a devastating anniversary.

Smiles :]

boo.

#almondpose
ft. @chaoticsleepy.bsky.social

sorry for all the slop poses i promise i'll do something with effort again once i stop having to get up at 4 am for work x-x

Femmes, always be sure to give your butch proper enrichment. By allowing them to engage in natural behaviors like carrying heavy objects for you, it promotes mental well-being and relaxation while deterring behavioral issues like chewing on the furniture and having accidents in the house.

butch enrichment.

#almondpose
ft. @chaoticsleepy.bsky.social

Tbf even if it *had* been photo-worthy, I devoured it so quickly that I couldn't have snapped a picture anyway lmao

a woman is looking at a plate of food and making a surprised face . ALT: a woman is looking at a plate of food and making a surprised face .

It's always kinda sad when I cook something that's SUPER delicious but it's just not photogenic enough for food porn.

That said, there was NOTHING sad about my dinner tonight... Crispy panko-coated pork tenderloin sandwiches marinated in buttermilk, hot sauce, and ranch seasoning...

Elle doesn't really take comfort days often / at all. But if she did? The ideal one would be staying in bed all day, only leaving when absolutely necessary. She'd likely spend her day of bed-rotting by reading. And bonus points if someone is there rotting with her that she can cuddle up to.

she said NO PICKLES.

ft. @chaoticsleepy.bsky.social :3

#almondmisc

You have strength enough. What you love, you will love. What you undertake, you will complete. You are a fulfiller of hope; you are to be relied on. But seventeen years give little armor against despair... Consider, Arren. To refuse death is to refuse life.

Needless to say, it's very much one of those subjects that Elle tries her best to bury down deep and ignore because if she didn't..? It would quickly spiral into a full-blown, ugly emotional crisis.

..everything and everyone she cares about behind and start over somewhere new? Her patients, her clinics, her friends..

Even those few, close friends who know her secrets whom she wouldn't have to abandon.. Could she stand watching helplessly as they age, become frail, and leave her behind?

Elle is at least 90% sure that her wonky state of existence means she's unable to physically age.. and thinking about that a little too hard is absolutely *terrifying* to her.

If she doesn't physically age, then at some point.. people will begin asking questions. Will she have to leave..

But all of that to say.. Unless a spontaneous IC approach seems like it's going to lead to something more interesting than chit-chat right off the rip or I'm extremely interested in the character themselves, I'm probably just gonna pass.

It isn't personal. My brain worms are just finicky.

That isn't to say that I think there's anything wrong with casual social RP. It's just not my thing.

Like.. I'm already spending 40hrs of each week making small talk with strangers as part of my job and it's SUPER draining. So during my downtime? I want to focus on telling stories, not socializing.

Unless I'm at an open world RP event where walk-up RP is the expectation, I *much* prefer an OOC approach unless we're already RP partners.

The main reason is just that I am absolutely, 110% burnt out on "they meet, make small talk, and that's it" social RP that comes from Quicksand walk-ups.

(Though I guess the first part isn't actually shitposting..)

Yes, Elle will only consume blood harvested unethically from people at peak levels of moral reprehensibility.

Shitposting aside, Elle is actually a very adventurous eater! Even if she's pretty sure she'll hate something, her curiosity and love of novel experiences will insist that she still try it.

How will the little bee scream for me...❤️💛

a woman wearing glasses is talking to a man in a room . ALT: a woman wearing glasses is talking to a man in a room .

For someone in her late 60s, my mother is passably tech savvy. But then we also sometimes have talks like these:

her, bewildered: my banking app is all messed up!
me: does it need updating?
her: idk!! it just tells me 'we're having technical difficulties'!!!
me:

Yep

As soon as she stops? She crashes. Yet no matter how tired she was or how late she is in getting to bed, she's almost always up with the sun the next day to do it all over again.

She's just the type that will routinely run herself ragged, stopping only when her body gives out and *puts* her down.

If there's work left to do, Elle just.. keeps going, even if she's having to fight to open her eyes again with every blink. She'll slow down and she's certainly prone to making more mistakes, but she doesn't stop. As long as she has momentum, she can see *one* more patient, run *one* more errand..

"What tense do you prefer to write in, eepy?"

I prefer the Vibes Only tense where I just close my eyes and let jesus take the wheel.

I will be so for real with you right now..........

I'm a chaotic mess with tenses. Some scenes will be past tense, some present. Sometimes within a single scene, posts will alternate. I've even been known to inadvertently mix tenses within a *single* post.

It's my Achilles' Heel as a writer, lmao.

to hold me like water.
or christ, hold me like a knife.