Desaturated Ebil Monster (but resolved-adjacent)

doodles of marx from Kirby doing various things: calling on dark powers to telepathically eat pizza, bouncing on ball, trying on new outfits, and balls.

The stretches of time between hobbies have been really (draw)n out, recently.

I'm trying not to draw with nothing in mind, but usually marx is my go-to if I'm blanking

i think social media has goofed up my mental library a little

Maybe because the last two games I played were Silksong and Baba, but when I got to the Old Tower part, it was legitimately fun to figure out where to use specific powers to progress and build a mental map. A tiny bit noseblind, but not punishing--welcoming even.

A discovery of depth.

I've been replaying old nostalgic games recently like Final Fantasy Duodecim and Kirby Super Star Ultra.

I'd like to apologize to The Great Cave Offensive on behalf of tween me, I literally did not recognize your game

The Disco Elysium icon staring at me like the green goblin mask when I'm looking for a new game to start.

Prematurely ended it at 116 dandelions, definitely going back. I will put the OST in the background when I need to channel being a confused little creature, which is often--but in a more productive way.

Aspirational, but IF we do find out by the 2030-50's I WILL be petty and call this year a bingo.

Saw a video about talking about a paper in 2025 about Ganymede potentially being evidence of dark matter by maybe being a victim of a hit and run (no, I have no idea what I'm talking about)

No.

The answer to your question is No.

Especially if the question is one word.

Beaten a few levels, cleared/flowered(?) a few areas, but have gotten to a point where like I'll have a momentum from solving one--

Then I'll open another and I avert my eyes like it's a beloved pet delivering grave news in a dream.

"That's something to unpack for another day for sure."

I love the animations for each and everyone, there's so much visual polish and character details.

I like the game. I just wanted to understand what I felt by saying it.

The game feels a bit heavier, but I think that's a bit purposeful and makes me want to improve. (Still it kinda compounds.)

And I would be more willing to engage with learning that as a dumb casual if I was just waiting less.

Navigating the menu is little bit of a pain in the butt.

Then in Arcade, I'm waiting an oddly long time between stages.

A love for that culture! The visual indicators for the tech make it easier to internalize. So you'll loop back to wanting cool moments from learning the nitty gritty faster.

So, Rivals 2 seems to go a lot harder into the technical stuff. So you'd think I'd be definitely exhausted by that.

Not really, surprisingly!

Yeah, I think the game is pushing for a more technical competence but that's the identity, right?

Never really cared if I was good at them but felt nice.

Usually, I don't want to get good at fighting games because I don't want to homogenize mechanics across games.

(I'm dumb sentimental, you seen my posts.)

Just wanna see a cool move and eek out a win.

The original made me feel like I was finally understanding the competitive side of Smash/Platform fighters.

I also picked up Rivals of Aether 2 as a palette cleanser from my brain being sanded down into a smooth stone.

I love Fleet for how sincerely uncool she is.

I'm jokingly saying, "I'm going back (to crazy)," in a grim voice

I like this kind of humor, you don't have to.

My "hopeful alignment" for this year is to go full freak. Whole Dunning-Kruger. Especially in private, just waves of delusions and idealism without apology.

I think that'll give me stamina to be sane in public.

Also, there's more times it's inappropriate to be 50% crazy then 75% crazy, right?

I'd like to imagine someone sees me fingers pinching the bridge of my nose face down is like,

"Ah poor guy must gotten bad news."

Nah, he IS Baba AND Stupid

Y'know that wall of difficulty was a lot wallier then I expected.

I've been going through my day trying to solve this one puzzle in my head, like by playing it in my head AND IM LOSING

Baba is brain. Help.

So I either miss crazy obvious stuff I have to repeat, or intuitively figure out weird stuff and never really get why.

I'm having a GREAT time.

Like same issue with math in school growing up, I have to constantly reinvent the wheel (at varying levels of success) to remind myself why it works

The game has already made me babble nonsense loudly "No, 'Baba is you, is wall' makes Baba wall, but there's only 'Baba is you', so no Baba. No you."

I think for the new year, tonally, I'm going to put Disco Elysium on the backburner for now. I'm super slow at games I want to play so, I have Baba is You, RainWorld, and Live A Live right now.

Started Baba last night, I'm beginning to realize why I would be frustrating to watch play puzzle games

Merr

A 2026 Bingo sheet. The squares read as follows from top-down, left-to-right: "A collection of pleas to Gabe Newell pierces heaven (cause Valve in mainstream news?)," "Linux is caught pants down at height of popularity (maybe because of?)," "Sports crossover with something inexplicable. It's so bizarre but fun so who cares." "Scientific breakthrough bc of Moon" "Egg (singular)" "I finally learn how to write a f***ing email that I don't hate" "A sandwich scares the world" "Indie extraction game movie announced" "Carcinization becomes chilling for a brief moment." "You think you've seen the dumbest vehicle? WATCH THIS" "Elden Ring 2 except no." "Banjo Kazooie 4 because NO." free space "Bed that kills you gets uncomfortably popular." "Folk music is a dance craze (things are NOT okay)" "Humans prove surprisingly robust, adapting a solid infrastructure for information to be disseminated resulting in a profound hope that only people you hope are okay would object to." "Someone takes a poop so righteous it disrupts the economy of a small town" "brat summer but now it's hotdogs" "nightcore AGAIN." "Gov. official references anime and it goes about as well as you think" "Crazy-ass medical tech emerges from Australia (damn it's AI)" "Oh wait, no it wasn't AI? Thanks Australia!" "Tumblr sexyman is just a really determined streetpole (utility object)" "Butt-rock becomes dance craze (things are okay?)" "Legislation on social media but because egos are hurt."

A lot of these are up to interpretation because I'm stupid, and want the wiggle room to give myself a bingo next year

next year more outside

I really want to visit national parks.
There's also a game dev group in area that has workmeets and I kinda want to make it out to one.

Do want to challenge myself, but without mistaking what I want or feel, with what I think I should want or feel.

I think turning off Youtube recommendations (history) was the smartest thing I did this year.

Also managed timelines and feeds, but I guess that's less smart if it means I'm missing out on just...banger tweets and reposts. Informative! Entertaining!

think I'm okay tho

DELTARUNE on sale! It's the big "20". Check websites for more.

small doodlesheet with fragments of faces with prominent spirals, drawn with white lines on black paper. A cat and bunny about to dab it up in an esoterically satisfying way

I've been doodling on paper a lot more recently.

So humor about my esoteric stuff treads on perfectionism subtly.