° . °♣️ vicky ♣️° . °edsky° . °

Haven't posted progress pics here.. First pics were from April 2023 at my biggest, been through periods of restriction and maintenance (trying to control bed) since then.
First pics I was about 225lbs
At 130 atm

Gonna attempt my skincare then go to the shops and get some supplies (supplies being lite cream cheese for my low carb bagels and N0S for my stupid brain)

Called in sick to work because I stayed up late drinking white wine and doing ❄️... Some shit I would have never even considered doing a couple years ago.. Not the rugs just calling in and shirking responsibilities for them, quite a reorganisation of priorities happening... Not good

Thankyou for cheering me up genuinely omg

But hey started seeing a man so old people think he's genuinely my father in public but he is a sug@r D@ddy so its beneficial.

Said bf was sober enough to drive me to their house and told me I was going to kickons with other people and his gf. (Australian after party)

Every time I think I'm at rock bottom it in fact gets so much worse.

My "friends" bfs sa'd me on new years and all my "friends" took his side and now I have no friends. All said friends literally were the ones who got me drunk and gave me drugs and then said that I shouldn't have gotten so drunk and that I lied about it being SA.

I'm back sorry just been having the most unimaginable tragic months of my life actually not sure how I'm alive

I went and made roast chicken at my situationships house and brought him homemade sourdough, i have exactly 30 minutes. I hate bpd.

I was at my 'situationships' house and he asked me to stay over (he keeps fucking treating me like a gf) and he said he has some clothes i could borrow i said they wouldn't fit he said "dw they're big on me".. motivation for the next couple years..

Locking back in.

I have a mouth ulcer that's making it hard to eat literally perfect

Im finally in the 50s (kgs) we aren't ever going over 60 again.

Everyone keeps saying I look skinny. Finally. Now it's time to look sick.

Now that I'm thinner all the guys I talk to that go to the gym have the personality of a peice of toast

We got gifted a bunch of close to our fo date food and almost half of it was protein bars!! And they're all ones that I FUCKING LOVE.. I feel like me praying to greek gods is paying off..

I have 3 dates this week and they all wanna take me out for food! Time to starve

Found out I like sardines 19g protein for 170cals is so good too 😁🐟

Im moving and ive been away from my scale but I've been far too sad to eat and my clothes are getting nice and loose breakups are good for some things :D

Pilates, yoga, matcha kinda day

Finally left my absolute peice of shit boyfriend will try and post more, will definitely need to to keep my mind off of things :))

It makes it so hard to be in deficit when im emotionally exhausted all the time from being abused emotionally. Just want to be by myself again and focus on my body again and thats all. I've already wasted enough of my youth on this fucking man.

Literally can't wait till I'm financially stable enough to leave my terrible terrible relationship 💔

Update on my tracker, went a bit off track for 2 days but going back strong now :)) got a bit sick so I'm doing lots of miso soup only 40 cal for a whole bowl :33

Got way too drunk and ate maccas :(((((

Wine drunk again :// alc cals suckk

Cup teokkboki ramen for dinner its only 400cals 🍜

My bf made me eat takeout chips from his meal I think he's trying to cut cars but why to i have to have them >.<

I was waiting for someone to try this!!