🏳️‍⚧️ ~neon~

Screenshot of Ash’s Leavanny holding his rowlet in the Pokémon anime with totodile standing to the left

Zoomed in screenshot of Rowlet being held by Ash’s Leavanny in the Pokémon anime

gently holding the rowlet

something about this... makes me incredibly nostalgic...

Fatinha Ramos.
Artista palestina.

fun fact after the thread I just wrote: lately I've noticed I want to live just a little bit more. don't think there's hope left, it's just maybe I could yk, play some cool games, watch some nice shows or make some cool art which I'll hate but it probably won't be that bad if it isn't me hearing it.

if the friends I meet irl were as good as ppl I've met on the internet the world would be 4x better. people just aren't themselves off the computer, look at me typing this, you think I talk like this irl? no one would be around me. I say stuff here because whenever I go out these words will matter.

if someone I know reads this I'm sure it'll be after I go out, I have some internet friends and some ppl I like chillin and playing games with on discord but they don't make me write differently. I'm sorry you ppl even get me on your timeline, truly hope you enjoy your lives, best of luck. luv u.

it truly does seem like I will cease before my nightmares do, I can't even imagine trying to heal again and watching all that progress die just to hate myself, hate my life, be with people I don't like or get, and just keep living for other people instead of myself like I've been doing for 20 years.

all that wasted time dawns on me at times like these because when the night falls all I have left is me, and this is what goes through my head when sleep gives up on me. bad thoughts, bad feelings, bad dreams, bad nightmares, bad wants, bad needs, it's all so bad. don't waste your time, live or die.

9 years of silent pain and agony, 9 years of ignorance and arrogance, 9 years of realizing I will never find purpose ever again. all I do is distract myself with whatever I find entertaining be it human interaction, games, videos or whatever it is I end up wasting all this time I don't deserve with.

sorry for the language but I'm truly just too much of a pussy to tell anyone how bad I want this to end, how much I love them, how much I miss how things used to be, how horrible everything feels and how disgusting I truly am. if I ever end up letting go and any of u see this please make a decision.

I will never truly be anything, I'll never be happy as I always crave for more, I will never be sad as it's truly all in my head, my surroundings aren't at fault, I will never be loved as I never show who "I" really is, I exist in a husk that speaks in lies, a husk that'll never tell the full story.

I'm selfish for that and I'm selfish for a lot more, I don't deserve to live a good life and I accept it, not everyone deserves that. I almost let go 9 years ago, in these 9 years I've had time to think, time to act, time to live. I didn't think enough, I acted in bad ways that pushed me here today.

one of the only things I know is that what we call "living life" just isn't a real thing. love isn't real, if I ever meet that person I dream of I will weigh them down and I'll know it, whatever happens will be my fault and I know it, things ending is something I can't live with, I'd let go before.

I'm sad some people that follow me have to read this and I really hope they get to enjoy the things I can't. if I end up coming back from that place alive, everything will be the same as it is now, I'll still be lost, hating myself. I'll just be chasing a reason that'll push me to finally let go.

4am, can't sleep, listening to acnl 7pm thinking about what it could have been, but I don't think I've got much time left. I'm a disappointment to myself and all the people around me. In just 9 days I will be in a different place where I won't care. I will live the last 4 limitless days of my life.

blahaj ikea shark in a train staring out of the window

goin' on a date

ミ source: @shi.gg
ミ #sfw #blahaj #transfem #trans #train #öbb

"this the shit they did in hotline miami" like do u understand no u don't god dam.

checked the comment section on an osu! beatmap I like and saw this amazing contemporary art piece. thought I should share.

Now i am become faggot, destroyer of capitalism

I don't want to do stuff I don't want people to worry I don't want to feel like this I wish this life was given to a different soul I don't want to explain because I can't anymore. I don't know where or how to express sadness so I just rant about it on the internet. I don't "feel sad" I just am sad.

I tend to talk in a very dumb way mixing english into my speech while talkin in other languages and it's just so sad when someone tells me to "talk like a human" like people really think I'm embarassing to be around.

when u lowkey realize that what makes u different in this world is that anyone else in ur situation would have done what you didn't do and worked harder than u did and would be living a real life instead of distracting themselves just to not have panic attacks through thinking about their life :3

maybe I should think about *when* to think about some stuff, at the current moment I'd say thinking in present is more important, it won't drive me crazy like some other options due to the sheer simplicity of it; what "the present" really is is just me writing dumb stuff I'll regret writing on a pc.

posting sad stuff isn't gonna do much and I know that. I keep my stuff to myself and I don't talk about it. I think about things a lot more than I "should", but at what point "should" one stop thinking? it can't just be "pointless" "overthinking". maybe we never stop? we just "think about it later"?

I feel like I owe myself to a lot of people, don't feel like I own myself sometimes. sometimes I don't want to go on other times I'm entertained and happy. whenever I'm alone I tend to think about my future and I don't want to wait for something pointless. I should think about the present a lot more

this is so cute omg I love it.

art by @BEAR_Organs

yo pokemmo lowkey kinda fire, like, if u got nerd friends to play with this is awesome. I've always been a big pokemon fan btw, gen 4 kid :3

a quick fuuka
#persona3