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mmmm cookies (im not eating just imagining)

I feel like I don’t deserve to live why am I Alive at all

If I resist asking for food like a fat bitch then maybe i will lose .0019294020 pounds

I’m tired of being fat

If they’re not begging you to eat you’re fat

I could literally fall at her feet screaming that im hungry and she wouldn’t care bc im not skinny enough

Im not eating today

See my problem is I can starve with no issue but once a tiny shred of food touches my mouth I eat half the fridge

I’m only allowed to do omad and only dinner bc I cannot be trusted with anything else

Besides looking fat, I didn’t warm up before band practice so I sound scratchy asf fml

I ate normie calories today 😔

I wish my disorder actually caused weightloss and not endless cycle of tummyache and being fat

I hate this

Tbh all the obese people I know probably have EDs. They have really unhealthy relationships with food. Title could have been BED vs Anorecic

I might compromise and ask her to get me a coffee instead. Idk why I feel safer with just liquid cals rn

to empanada or to not empanada

Trying to do omad again today but my fiancée is driving by this empanada place I like 🤤

I’m optimistic about the next time I weigh myself. I just have to stay focused today.

fiancée wants me to wear something skimpy tn but i don’t wanna look F A T!

heads up i may or may not drunk post tn 🤪

Yeah im already on those 😭 thnx anyways

I tried going on and there are no posts. Do I need an account to just browse?

Which communities? The one I’ve seen are just recovery stuff I wanna be disordered 😩

I love old stuff. Early 2000s movies >>>>>
But I also love 80s & 90s films

New stuff that’s actually good to me is rare

im supposed to do a liq fast but my fiancée wants to go out dancing and then sushi. the sushi will be around or after midnight tho so *technically* should be fine (im delusional)

*sigh*

the last thing i ever want to do is go back to twitter bc i HATE elon musk but the community just isn’t big enough here. anyone know any other good online spaces?

good morning, i did not magically lose 20 pounds in my sleep so im kinda pissed today

Genuinely so upset I did lunch omad bc now I feel like I can’t leave the house and im so bored and down and bleh

need this right now

I just wanna feel good about myself and it feels so far away