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I wish my dad treasured me like he treasures my sister... my uncle hit on me right in front of him and he said nothing...

Day 4:

I'm really scared that wl is making my hrt ineffective :/ idk, part of me thinks since I already have decent size boobs and stuff that I don't need to worry but I still do. I'm also rlly rly scared of hair loss. I already don't have a ton of it and I'm trying to grow it out

I'm completely overwhelmed I feel paralyzed

Omfg where are all these bruises coming from?? Who's beating me in my sleep???

I just need to be dead

Day 3:

I don't really look at thinspo tbh 😭 but I like being able to see my sternum and collarbones and ribs

I get panic attacks so fucking easily....

Day 2:

I kinda already answered this oops

I'm 5'6, I'm taller than both my parents, my older sister and most of my extended family members. I really really hate it. I should be grateful I'm not super tall, cuz I know some other trans girls who would kill for my height, but I just feel like a giant

I just want to be a better person

He acts like I ⭐️ve myself even though I eat PLENTY. My brain just won't shut up cuz I have a binge eating disorder and a food addiction

OmFG my bf is trying to make me eat more I can't I can't

I just can't focus on anything I can't study I can't get myself up so go to class most days I just don't know what to do all I think about is FOOD I'm literally fucking addicted to food, it's DISGUSTING

I'm so fucking miserable miserable I'm gonna fail all my fucking classes and I'm never gonna lose enough weight to be pretty

Day 1:

Height - 5'6
HW - 230 lbs
CW - 125 lbs
GW - 110 lbs
UGW - 90 lbs

I wanna join :3

December 1st

Popcorn - est 600
Apples (2) 180

Total = 780

Steps = 3723

Right?? I would refuse to sit with my family at dinnertime as a kid cuz it physically made me sick 😭

True, I just feel inadequate since I gained in October :/ I need to lock back in and stay focused. Thanks

Weighed in at 125 this morning, meaning I lost 4.4 LBS since November 1st. Not bad, but I can do better

Ooh the struggle

It was about her asceticism and the moralization of food and certain lifestyles in western cultures, both modern and historical

reading abt ana in my anthropology class 😭

Omggg I love sotr somuch!!!! But yea its brutal 😭😭

"im so fat i need to lose weight"
*eats*
"im so fat i need to lose weight"
*eats*
"im so fat i need to lose weight"
*eats*
"im so fat i need to lose weight"
*eats*
"im so fat i need to lose weight"
*eats*
"im so fat i need to lose weight"
*eats*
🔄🔄🔄🔄🔄🔄🔄

I just want to be pretty... I just need to put in the work and restrict and exercise and learn how to take care of my hair and nails properly... it's just so overwhelming:( if I was actually a girl most of this would come naturally and I would've been taught it :(

Tysm!!!

Tysm!!! 🥰🥰

Do I look cute and normal and innocent in this fit or do I look like a freak pervert who likes being tied up I can't tell

I hope so too teehee

Yea it's fine... we're both in music so I see him at rehearsals every week too :/ I just really really hate seeing him when I'm not expecting to 😭