Nova

I love my partner so very much and everything they do makes me so happy, especially when they play fortnite with me.

When you know your partners friend group is being lied to, but can't say anything because if you do it might ruin their friend group. But damn, someone be lying and I wanna throw hands.

Waiting for them to make it look like I had ended myself.

I was 20 and 21 and 22
Every year since I was 11 years old.
And every other year since I was younger then 6

I was prepared to die.
I made it somehow.
Every now and again, i am still prepared to die

I don't remember now, but at 15 I was prepared to die.

I was 16
I was 17
I was 18 and prepared to die.
I was prepared to die because I was told I would never live to see 19

I made it to 19 and was still prepared to die
Waiting for them to find me
Waiting for them to kill me

I was 11 when I was prepared to die
I was 12
I was 13
I was 14
I was 15 when I was prepared to die, this time at my own hands.
No one believed me, no matter how hard I screamed
No one believed me when I said who hurt me
No one wanted to believe someone was capable of these things.

I was 10 the second time I was prepared to die
Offered like a lamb for slaughter
I had no choice
I couldn't say no
They wouldn't have liked it if I said no
I somehow survived.

Written by me 2/20/2011

I was 6 the first time I was prepared to die
They beat me
They offered me for sacrifice
They took away my power
And I was prepared to die.
Not at my own hands
But as those who hurt me

Daily reminder to take meds, drink water and get some sleep. It's okay to take that break you need.

When in doubt, dance it out

My grandma gave me so much trauma that if I lie about anything, ever, I end up panicking about it.

I found out that I can't post my poems or writing on here due to the cap of 300

It hasn't even been a whole week yet and I be forgetting this app.