bee :)

anybody else have imposter syndrome for being alive or is there just something inherently wrong with me

im shaking with adrenaline waiting for my one minute microwave rice. the guilt is eating me alive im not even hungry anymore

being seen using the apartment kitchen feels like a cardinal sin. im so sorry that i live here and that i need to eat sometimes. god im so terrible i should be ashamed. im being a burden and taking up space and i dont even deserve to eat actually. you should just kill me

keep seeing bugs in my peripheral can they leave me alone jesus

this sucks so bad

i dont have anybody in this city that im close enough with to put through my medical bs so they can drive me back to my apartment after i get my bloodwork done. so im gonna have to sit in the hospital lobby for like two hours to just make sure i dont have a seizure or pass out while driving back

its just me and my ginger kombucha against the world

forcing myself to finish this essay at 1 in the morning knowing damn well i would rather eat shit and die

currently playing my favorite game: am i allergic to this food i just ate or is my throat being tingly for no reason

its been a rough week (its wednesday)

the week before a period starts would kill a man

the lion is a fucking idiot

the lion has already eaten too much and it is only 2pm

no longer nice. i cant sleep

fasting today. havent in a long time. might start fasting on sundays again this is nice

waiting for this stupid energy drink to kick in i have RESPONSIBILITIES

craving golden oreos so bad rn yall have no idea

i need to read more books. that would fix me i think

when i eat low res i cant bring myself to care about anything. the world could be ending rn and id probably just go lay down

i am not pretty enough to be this weird i need to lose more weight

DUDE ITS SO EMBARRASSING 😭😭😭 when i first went vegan my fiber intake upped so quickly my stomach started performing chemical warfare. bubble gut almost had me googling the geneva protocol for poison gas

imagine hating on me and this is me in my room eating pickle chips

like how am im supposed to drive 3hrs to get to u then 💔💔 life is just constantly beating the shit out of me can i get a break can i get up pleaseee im tired

messaged my doctor about my health issues recently and now i have to get more bloodwork and my next appointment is moved up and she asked me to avoid driving until this is resolved LMAO fuck

this would be solved by taking a nap i think

my heart hurts so bad it feels like theres an old lightbulb in my chest. just burning up in there. radiating down my arm and cooking my left lung. ive got a hand pressed against my sternum like when ppl get poisoned in movies

didnt separate my laundry and now my favorite white shirt is no longer white. is this hell. have i died and been sent to hell

chip0tle was a mistake my tummy hurts

well damn

getting chip0tle tmr im so excited yall have no idea