cath

All those 'it'll get easier with time' don't know what they're talking about no it doesn't

It's been ten years and it still hurts as much as it did back then

at least have the balls to tell me the truth. i don't care if the truth is simply "sorry i don't feel like it" or even "i don't wanna hang out with you" that's fine! i don't care! but do not lie to my face about it be fr

see i'm not mad one of my close friends is choosing euthanasia because i get it i know her well enough to understand but what i am mad about is that she's been begging for /months/ to go somewhere with me and the day before she cancels with a stupid lie

im so upset i let my friends convince me to get help

Hope you feel better soon :(

I promise ill stop changing my layout eventually

On one hand the intake was rlly expensive and i cant afford to pay another intake at another place, on the other hand the sessions will also be expensive and is that truly worth it with someone i dont feel comfortable with? Then again it was only one talk maybe it's fine & im overthinking it

Idk if this dietitian is gonna work out ngl the more i play it back the less im feeling it

7am and still awake do i even try atp

Had my dietitian intake today which scared me so much and also kinda upset me afterwards and he didnt even ask how it went.. not a word! The bar is in hell and yet

It's funny to see the range of people caring & not caring but why is the one person i love most also the most into the not caring range lol

nauseous :(

that feeling when you're 100% sure you gained because of a binge and then you check and nothing happened like oh... why was i so dramatic about this

Omg 👀 it's so rare to find others with it

I wanted therapy for my selective mutism and then i let my friends convince me to mention my ed (as a side note btw) in my intake and then the team set me up with their ed specialist. I didnt even ask for that

Idk why im even in therapy for this it's not like i actually wanna recover anyways

i had. so much chocolate tonight. i dont feel well lmfao

it's always pronouns don't equal gender unless someone's pronouns don't equal gender 😭

I cant do this anymore

I might be complaining about being hungry but i will also refuse to do anything against it

I notice im becoming meaner internally and one day im accidentally gonna say smth out loud and fuck up so bad :/

Im hungry and i wanna cry

It's 3am so i really should at least take another nap but the adhd zoomies are not letting down tonight

Exam in 5h i dont think im gonna get any sleep anymore

Im exhausted it's 7pm and im about to go to bed i cannot do life rn

Im gonna continue having a layout crisis to avoid studying for my last exam so excuse me

I kinda love that my dad can tell when the food he cooks is really good by how much i happy stim at the table because of course i always say it's good but the stimming shows the nuance of how good (& it happens nearly every time he cooks vs never when i grab myself sth quick)

If they wanted to find this account they 100% could and maybe they already did

I love i went from 'gotta keep this account anon so my friends wont ever find it' to not giving a shit anymore