🪬jizzards of the coast🪬

ok thats your weekly drama thank yew

Luckily for everybody I’ll probably deactivate this account along with deleting all other social media off my phone for my time in nyc

starting Sunday it’s lock in time

she will figure it out, I believe in her, I don’t need her to like or respect me or have her in my life at all to be ok

it would be NICE because I LOVE her and MISS her but I am ok and not gonna like sign myself up to suffer endlessly about it bc that would be a stupid move

had nothing to my name multiple times and rebuilt

so many times w partners i thought I had forever and got my heart shattered

my most effective coping mechanism is Fix My Life And Do Better or Try My Damnedest

And I’m doing real good
But I have a lifetime of building habits and bouncing back from some really fucking abominable circumstances to float me, this breakup was devastating but I’ve been homeless, a survival sex worker, hospitalized multiple times for psychosis, traumatized as a mf

I typed and banished to my notes a much more scathing rant or two

Deleted because at the end of the day i‘m in a good place and she’s not, i am burdened with some stupid survivors’ guilt because I worked fucking hard to build myself back up and get my shit together after we split

Of the amount of time and energy I devoted to her and our relationship during our time together and I gotta say! fuck that stank attitude!!!)

She blocked me everywhere, if this breaks containment it’s either her fault or y’all’s but I am beyond caring what happens, I just gotta say my piece here bc she don’t wanna hear me and she truly doesn’t care how I feel. (Which is probably healthy, I just don’t like the disrespect -

You are smarter than that and I know it. but Whatever it actually doesn’t matter. Hope your birthday doesn’t suck total balls. Hope if you see this, it doesn’t bring you pain.

Lil reality check never hurt nobody.

Like, I approach you with sincerity and honesty 100% of the time and you deal with the idea of me with actual disrespect! Yet you call me disrespectful! Make it make sense! Get your logic right!

if you ever wanna reconnect and level and like, have a friend in me again, door is always open bc I’m not a spiteful bitch and I see us as equals ackshewally

and if you need to cut me out for good to find peace, that’s fine

Just check yourself and watch your mouth before you shit on me

If my sincerity, care, time, labor, money spent meant jack shit to you, congratulations on being rid of me, the flea that was on your fucking back!

On my way to find more delicious blood to suck ✌️

I’m not even like scared sad about it anymore, I’m a subject of her derision online and behind my back so let me just be a bitch

I gave you two years of my love, care, labors and favors! two years orienting my whole life around your comfort and happiness! cleaning cooking and propping you up!

Happy birthday to the horse who hates my guts

Me like ssord

Me w two sword

:)

im the luckiest bitch in the whole world

Finally a fucking hobby I can enjoy unrelated to all the other shit I do

And now I am obsessed again and poring over forums and ManaBox

My algorithms are all becoming mtg heavy

This is the way this is what saves me

I still have the same cards I’ve had since I was 11, I have been mtg pilled but it’s taken me over 20 years to find the time to try again and someone to play with literally this is healing my inner child

Yall don’t understand I’ve been wanting to play mtg since 5th grade when I convinced my sister and neighbor to get starter decks

Tried to teach them to play and they lost interest immediately, nobody else at my school or in my town my age played

I used to just longingly look thru the cards

bunny girl balancing in an axe

sad demon boi

clown girl

sleepy cozy girl

merp
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im the luckiest bitch in the whole world

yall ever have someone pick you up like you weigh nothing and uhhhh

Yeah excuse me da helly

I should stfu but my LORD

again I say

Da helly

something something "the strap-on of fiery death"

untitled, 2025

i'm so into this man i'm gonna fucking explode hrrrhghghhghghghhg

if you are strong enough to do this and your partner is smaller than you I highly recommend giving it a go

I'm a feisty little bitch but it makes me fold like origami

yeh u right

I never imagined that being picked up princess style by a handsome man could have such an immediate attitude-adjusting effect on my state and yet here we are

da helly