muke

did they fix this yet

you're the only person still here :/

i am still not thrilled to be in italy especially after a nightmare getting here (got to my room at 1:30am lol), but what's even better is today and also tomorrow i'm spending all the talks finishing work for deadlines on my laptop instead of listening. there truly was no point!

the appeal of bluesky is that its meant to be the cool one but the discover tab feels like twitter 5 years ago. maybe we're stuck with elon afterall

im here for phd stuff which means falling asleep during talks and only interacting with nerds for a week

you'd think going to italy for free would be a cool thing but man i wanna come home already. what kind of music scene does the italian countryside even have

even on the small scale i think i forget how nice undirected activity is actually. im very concerned with 'being productive' and so all my free time has to be working towards some goal (even if that means fitting in as much time to play a game as possible), which ends up building a lot of routine.

i think i definitely don't like routine. even if everything involved is fun and good i don't think it'd be satisfied with knowing what's going to happen for months at a time. im sure this is common but im less sure on how to lead a life conducive to this

oh hey, im in your gc for the alerts. sorry to hear all the shit you've been putting up with

just saying when you have a jumper that goes down to your knees it just makes sense

is kinda fucked up how there is still a place for skinny jeans but you basically just can't wear them on principal

yea will do, not sure where to rly start looking though. and london cafes are 100% like that too yea, i think we invented that

g/acc was too ahead of its time, imagine if they came up with it on tiktok

never truly felt old before this moment

i'd like to read more on this sort of thing. typical marxist stuff of alienation obviously, but what life looked like before neoliberalism, and exactly how this transition happened, would be really fascinating if not overly depressing. i think this sort of thing is what i'm most passionate about.

but again this isn't meant to bemoan any of my own experience so far (its been much better than this lets on), i get most upset about this when thinking about how generalised a condition it is, and what not only everyone else must be missing out on but what we must all be missing out on together.

anywhere that's a shop/cafe *and* something resembling a community has to be so tightly cherished, any public space that isn't just a highstreet is the center of the universe. everywhere else, regardless of how trendy or active, is so desolate.

this isn't meant to be about finding the right kind of events or friends though, i just so often find myself so thoroughly disappointed by my surroundings these days. its always been this way, strictly worse elsewhere, but i no longer have the prospect of something higher to defer to.

with the help of marxism and the direct experience of living in somewhere like london. even here, its still such a struggle to find genuine, organic interaction and community for anything. the best i've done is found something underground and had the privilege of looking in as an observer

something that weighs on my mind a lot lately is, for lack of better terms, community, public space, commodification of social spaces, etc. i think i've been upset about this in different ways my whole life but can obviously only begin to articulate it now,

but yk i guess its creative maturity to not force in every satisfying point for the sake of the whole picture. im hoping all the extra bits are inferred by what is there, but can i trust people this much? i rly worry if i don't make something explicit it won't ever click for ppl

i think the ml script is finally done, whats funny is it was all originally inspired by vietnam discourse and anarchists defending aes and i haven't even included any of that in the final thing, it just ended up all feeling too tacted on.

my 20m movement speed monk is starting to feel a little broken ngl. can walk out from behind a walk, attack, then cus i also have the mobile feat just walk away again back behind the same rock, every turn.

this is a joke, obviously im just anemic

sometimes when i wake up my muscles feel so weak i can barely move. has giving in to light caffeine consumption already made me a 'dont talk to me until' person??

mfer mixing with open backs

entire party getting hold personed before i had a chance to even make a movie

oh my god the aunt ethal fight is brutal, i may take back what i said about the game being too easy

bumped the underground in my fit and the guy behind the ticket office said over the mic 'i hope that helps you buy new clothes' lmfao

ive been rly tired +stressed today and considered not going cus i didn't think id meet anyone anyway, forgot tho that with a rave you don't need to meet anyone to feel a connection to everyone.

i also got three compliments on my fit which is the most important thing