dearly

Fucker Bowl

the remedy for a hot cold worked so well the last time. i need to up my game

been on tcm side of tiktok to try to cure my cold and battle a fever

noo i completely understand! and you aren't the only oomf who said they wanted to send mail!! that actually makes me feel better LOL cos i'd be much more worried if you had sent something fr.

you know what if i've permanently ruined a good relationship this time, i would like a definitive ending. unforch i know not many people deserve that, and maybe i am one of those people

i also ordered something a few months ago that needed to get mailed to me from the US so the idea that postage is extremely slow bothers me

i honestly think it takes a million months for me to be able to receive a postcard/letter. sliiiightly concerned (unless oomf didn't end up sending me anything which can happen!!!)

it is undeniably uncomfortable to see how entitled some people (non-poc) are to their own pain

i didn't buy any more blush or liptints and instead bought two (2) makeup items i didn't previously have. good job me

sometimes i think that talk therapy should stop soon bc i feel like i can handle myself. and then i get reminded of reasons why i am sad on a crushing random morning and be like 'oh thank god i have an appt next week'

back at the area i used to go to uni to. nothing as weird as walking past the exact starbucks you were forced to sober up in after happy hours

attempting to read qiu miaojin's notes of a crocodile the second time round bc i fell off the first time and i feel like i'm reading it in a new light. sometimes u rly just need to give up the first time and try again years later

riding past lots of padi fields during the sunset really did make me feel okay again for a bit. the world is amazing

frank ocean rendition of moon river, i am dead

now it's a laufey song. their playlist is too much for me today

please, please, please let me get what i want by the smiths came on in this café......STOP THIS.

FINISHED THE IDIOT. i am so sad it's ended. i wrote my longest review app.thestorygraph.com/reviews/d548...

five days of being in [redacted] city and it's driving me crazy and SO sullen. i haven't been alone for more than an hour here. i just have to hold out until tomorrow

i think the most heartbreaking thing is that the relationship (platonic) is not even severed but it sure feels like a part of it has truly died hence post-mortem.

falling into an unhealthy dynamic and realizing it much much later when you finally wake tf up is really embarrassing in a way post-mortem. like how did i let that happen etc. what happened to my independence

NVM, selin STOOD UP for herself and i am thoroughly enjoying the drama of it all. i cannot wait to log this and write my review

enjoying it but also i'm annoyed at the point i'm at within what's happening. i have either/or lined up i want to get to that soon!

need to reach page 300 of the idiot (elif batuman) by tonight before the flight tomorrow bc i'm somehow afraid that if i stop for five days i'll fall off reading altogether

received a self-help book on managing clinical mental illness from my mother, who bought it specifically for me. i was speechless but she isn't wrong to do so.... it was thoughtful, in fact.

h*dson williams being more fascinating to me than the character he plays. he is annoying a bit but i think that adds the extra point to being fascinating... someone take him apart please.

at the same boarding gate btw so we're heading to the same island

people wearing their sweaters and jackets at the airport and here i am in a tank top. it's a tropical country even with aircon

felt myself getting sick with an oncoming hot cold and chose to cancel plans and stay home.... the sense of premature accomplishment after making a responsible decision is unreal

he HATES me and is mad for ten minutes after a successful pill and treat session each time but it's okay

amazing news: i learned how to give a pill to my cat. without needing assistance!!!! 🥹🥹🥹