Androgyny

9 years ago my dr thought I was a drug addict and wouldn't do anything more than prescribe regular Tylenol. Today he's telling me I'm more disabled than I think I am and bumping up all the numbers I put on my disability review questionnaire. Sir who are you?

Completed white orchid with pink details in a greyish blue pot Lego set

My bf got me the best flowers of all time

The overlap between my autism/ADHD and bipolar means I am constantly questioning if it's just my fun personality or if I'm about to have a manic episode. I can't truly enjoy anything

I got called a drama queen pretty frequently and I have selective mutism so I was essentially silent 90% of the time. The "drama" was me having allergies

I'm having a bleh day bc I'm getting used to new mood stabilizers. I haven't been able to do anything fun all semester and now that I'm finally done exams my controller just will not connect in any game and my meds won't even let me rage about it 😠

Almost everything makes my other illnesses worse, they seem completely unaware of what the meds they recommend are containdicted with

I'm supposed to will power myself out of erratic brain chemistry or some shit

They are officially hanging me out to dry and struggle with my bipolar completely alone bc I'm 1 not responding to medication and 2 poor. $250 a session in this economy... This is simply the quiet version of eugenics

Been dating my childhood best friend for 9 months now and not once have I felt insecure, worthless, or hurt. Wish I could go back and tell past me during my abuse that love isn't supposed to be that hard

I'm not familiar with American terms, bc our stuff is different here, but there's also tutoring if you can't do teaching. Sometimes you can set your own rate depending on the website. I went Freelance advertised on the Canadian version of Craig's list and tutored local highschool students

You can teach ESL. Teachaway is an ok website to search for available positions and let's you filter by remote. Some only require any bachelor's degree

Ugh weaponized incompetence. I'm sorry that's not ok

That's not fair to you at all. Sounds like he has some things to work on in therapy to get over that discomfort. He has to be willing to try though. I'm very specific with my partner about what I do and don't want when upset and in meltdown and it helps bc he doesn't have to guess in the moment

It depends if they are neurodivergent as well, but regardless there should be some work put into learning to recognize when your partner needs something, especially if you've brought it up

We were discussing the lack of disability and queerness in the sexual sphere and the isolation of it all in disability studies class today and I'm so thankful for y'all sexy MFs bc I couldn't really relate. Extra love to queer and disabled sex workers 🖤

Women's number one complaint of men is the frequency of gender based abuse and violence

Men's number one complaint of women is their autonomy apparently

It's hilarious this shit bag thinks anyone needs a man for anything when in reality we live longer and happier without them

My classmate: I didn't know you were disabled

Me: *standing at my adaptive desk with my giant bag full of adaptive equipment I unload and drag class to class for the past two months*

That's certainly a first

I almost feel like a functional human being after 6 hours of sleep vs the typical 5 I've been getting bc of my university workload. How strange 🤔

I walked out of disability studies class today bc ableds were discussing Maid in a video and the way they dismiss my life is distressing. I'm proud of myself bc before I would have stayed and suffered until the point of meltdown for the sake of appearances instead of doing what I needed. Go me

Only one more week till reading week then I can finally relax, sleep, and go on some dates in Vancouver and Seattle with my lover

A good domme will work out with you exactly what you want and dont want in advance, triggers, phrasing all that. Trust is key. I think it could be good for you with the right person and a lot of communication and introspection

Back at school barely a month and I've already had two breakdowns. Sleep I miss you baby

I think that's a natural and common response. You're not doing grief wrong. Your brain is doing a good job protecting you. But you may want to take some purposeful time to reflect if the numbness is getting to be too much

It's ok not to, as long as that isn't affecting you negatively in every day life

Rather than call for assistance finding the stop, my para transpo driver decided to mark me as a no show and just leave me to sit on the concrete ground for 40+ min writhing from my endo pain. I just want to go home

Bf is overwhelmed as a project manager. Any low stress job ideas for introverts? Pay doesn't matter

Any other teachers of adults here? I teach ESL. I'm always looking for new ideas and approaches

This is in Canada btw. I never want to hear people tell me I'm safe here and to stop overreacting ever again

On the way home my former favourite para driver went into a 20 min long pro God rant that I could barely follow and ended with some transphobia then asked me what I think. As if it was safe for me to say what I thought locked in the front seat of his car

Apparently I don't look disabled enough. My para driver didn't think I was me this morning just kept repeating, "this is para"