Nobu

I just don't know why I should live.

I'm only here for a while. Because some people need me. Yet we live in a world where desires are rare. Am I a victim of this as well? Perhaps, perhaps. Perhaps I should desire more. Yet sometime I think of myself as the person who fulfils the desire, and yet no true desiree.

I lobotomize myself and completely shut off my brain until it is necessary for me to suffer. Until it is necessary for me to find ways and pathways towards new delusions and escapism to walk through from one reality to another. To just approach reality without Mantra is... not me

I can't stay delusional long enough for it to matter, and the one that cannot be named doesn't linger long enough for me to meet it everytime. Not that once I see it it'll never come back, the opposite actually. It's everywhere, and I meet it many time. But then what.

I just want to run away dawg I wish I could it's just that everywhere I go all I see is the path that has been walked and the stories that have been told and they all point in the same direction. And I have walked some myself and came to nothing new, just the same Truth.

The Arts, when it's good, allow you to escape, and also touch the truth in the matter. Yet not all reaches this point. And yet that's good. And yet, we can live entirely within the gulf between the reality we experience and the truth underneath it all through art.

I can't run a way I do not think the answer is running away and I worry about just doing things that aid in running away from the reality. It's just that the thing that makes you touches reality the most are also the things that in the process allow you to run away the most.

I'm so sceptical to any answer that looks luddite-esque because i live in a world that benefits and can only exist through the excesses that comes from the reality of the world and also i live in a reality where that excess is no where near abundant enough to disregard it

Yes yes the answer is in the real it's in the real it's in the things you can touch and god I wish it still exist but we don't exist in that world anymore. Not without cutting out information. Not without utilizing the tools available at our disposal.

It's not just being born under post-modernism, it's being born under post-modernism with all of the world's most potent memetic ideas beamed straight into your brain. Some say you should be careful but I doubt anyone with the kind of build that I have will say no to information.

The difference between me and all my predecessors is that none of them had the chance to get all the analysis, answers, contra answers, dissolution, destruction, recreation, failed recreation, of who they are, and everything that matters.

I didn't remember that I already watch the movie apparently. Crazy how my mind just doesn't remember. I still want to kill myself but it's like, man, I wish I can just give up like shinji. Must be nice to not have all contradictions of characters beamed into your head.

Maybe End of Evangelion will save me

Copy and paste the bunny and then put something else in his hand

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It's @eris.bsky.social

Dawg I'm so horny it's annoying

What are u using?

TLDAH

dang librarian is also on bsky??

in that regards where does the videos get transmitted? Is it direct P2P?

traffic is honestly my biggest worry here as with everything that's decentralized. i feel like it's underrated that the reason youtube and all these centralized internet medium is how "infinite" and "scalable" it feels, therefore people are able to just "use them" without thinking about infra

reading up on @stream.place and it just occurred to me that I don't understand how streaming work. how does one "decentralize" streaming? i also apparently know very little about P2P stuff and I always assume there's always a centralized server for this to actually work.

the simcluter needs to grow

sometime i think i look good

YOUR DAY AT A GLANCE Give yourself a new name. You've worn the same identity for years now. It fits like an old coat-comfortable but shabby. This week, try on something new. The people who truly matter will adjust. The rest were never really seeing you anyway. Do Don't Announcements Gavels Personal ads Broadcasting lelephone Fake glasses

It's telling me to make a new alt

fuck so it was an outage and not my internet

It's so funny how every single big official football account on Tiktok either is or have an Indonesian on their team because they always release edits with songs that only Indonesian would know like not even viral songs. Why is the FIFAWorldCup account doing Sinanggar Tulo dawg.

Art is something that was created by people, for people. I find that endlessly and utterly lovely.

oop it's moving the navbar when it increase

oop can you try again?!