Dragon Tess 🏳️‍⚧️

You do. Your gift is your friendship, your writing, your humor. It is yourself, and it is one of my favorite gifts. Thank you for being a friend.

Felt inspired this morning

Boss makes a dollar
and I make a dime
Makes a great jingle
and has a nice rhyme
But isnt quite current
with modern times
Now boss makes a dollar
and I make less than a third of a penny.

Being good at something and enjoying doing it are sadly unrelated.

Gender? I 'ardly know 'er!

I hate being scared. I'm TIRED of being scared. I'm exhausted of being scared. I don't think I can last 40 more years of being scared.

I figured out why no one on my bowling team can hit the pocket.

Because we're all trans women.

And women don't get pockets.

Thank you!! This review summed up the thoughts I was struggling so hard to put into words.

On one hand, its so beautiful and so fun to move around in. On the other - Did you enjoy Deepnest? Blighttown? The Tower of Latria? Then Silksong is for you! They pulled inspiration from the worst things!

It is a bit of a trop to go to a nerd event and see someone you know from a completely different context...

Then move three states and a time alone away... and see that same person at a completely different event.

A friend wrote a neat little micro-fic yesterday and I felt inspired to add to it. I know I'm biased but I think we did good.

You've overheard the people talk of souls before: ephemeral things that are the essence of a life.

They don't know if souls exist, but you do. Yours is strapped safely inside your cockpit.

You stretch though pre-mission checks, the one of you that is both. Together. Whole.

And then you RUN.

You lost an entire leg once. You remember the emptiness of part of you missing, and the wholeness when it was replaced.

It doesn't even compare to Her strapping in.

You give her everything of yourself, every motor, sensor, and weapon. In return she fills you with life. You finally, truly awaken.

She stumbles, unsteady from the cocktail within, working at opposites.

She is wired from the injections that tighten her muscles and sharpen her mind; Numb from the gas that dulls her senses, so you can give her yours.

You release the locks, and open yourself to the only one allowed in.

Your sensors came online 01:02:51.917 ago. The hangar door opens, and She walks in.

Your Hound, your Pilot, your other half.

She has been with you since you first became operational. Each of you learning the other completely. Even your designers no longer know you as well as She does.

Your sensors came online 00:57:46.741 ago. The technicians have finally stopped crawling over you.

Every system runs green. Reactor freshly refueled, ammo banks stocked to the hilt.

You are restless, but immobile. A mech cannot operate without a pilot, and so you sit, and wait, and watch.

To flip the script:

Your sensors came online 00:00:01.154 ago. You are just booting up. The ship could tell you how long you have been offline, but you don't bother. The time between missions always passes in a blink. The number is meaningless.

You are waking up, and that means only one thing.

I saw a window sticker on a Prius that said:

"Nice Prius!"
-No one ever

And thinking more on this.. Doesn't Star Trek have like THE example of "beating the unbeatable combat sim"? The Kobayashi Maru! It's Kirk's whole THING.

Of everything, this is the only one I'm willing to look the other way on.

For huge endless sim games, or grand strategies like Crusader Kings, how many people use "beaten" to mean "fully explored and am done playing".

Its still a stretch, but it's the only believable stretch in this whole episode.

Gods I miss Wildstar too. It did things that still havent been matched much less topped.

Time to get a new phone. Let's spin the wheel of "What Data Will I Lose This Time?"!

'"There is a tendency among the press to attribute the creation of a game to a single person" says Warren Specter, creator of Thief and Deus Ex' -IGN (Deus Ex 2 Review)

I wish this were new. But it does seem worse lately, especially in indie spaces.

I own the book! Do I count?

I'm so tired of having to mute video game channels.

Someone posted a "game devs then vs now" meme in the video game channel of a Discord I'm in. The discussion after was.. exhausting.

And this is a small Discord of nothing but friends and I'm not even the only dev there!

What is the opposite of the prefix "a-" like in "asexual"?

I'm Ace. But I'm 'the-exact-opposite-of-a'-romantic. I'm yes-romantic. Pro-romantic. Holy-heck-please-romantic. I-need-it-right-now-romantic.

Fuck I need a hug.

Even the game knows the truth! <3

How is every single word of the flavor text even funnier than the last? I choked on my coffee several times trying to read that. Glorious!

It's DOUBLY stupid because what's basically the number one thing everyone is fighting against with AI right now?

AI ART

"AI won't be able to do MY job because it's art! But AI art is just as good as human art."

Some days I'm content with where I am and my progress. Some days feel hopeless and I want to just give up and lay in the dirt until the earth takes me.

Today is very much the latter.

Wait, I'm also something of a Myst sicko.. I guess I have something on my todo list then.