Duckie (expect vaccine funk)

*wasn't a gift. I'm not selling gifts.

Update on finances: Due to a VERY generous donation (seriously, $2000) I'm only $693 away from my October goal!!! After talking with my therapist, I decided to make a few changes to what I plan to do with the money. -- I'm going to pay off what I owe T-Mobile (about $100) so I can use their phone for AirTalk Wireless, which is free (and I've already been approved for). This will pay for itself in about 2.5 months. -- I'm going to save $300 in case I end up getting evicted so I can have a storage unit for two months in case things go south. The rest will be used as planned: bills, late rent, food for Friede, etc. I also did some digging and found my comic book collection, which I could probably get a few hundred dollars for. I also found an old coin collection that my dad gave me, and I'm going to call a local coin shop and see about getting that appraised and if I have something interesting. I've also noticed that, as the threat of eviction increases, I'm finding myself being less attached to my stuff. So, I'm probably going to sell a lot of it. Like, a lot. If it doesn't have a function or was a gift, I'm probably getting rid of it. I probably should have been at this point sooner, but one of my biggest flaws is that I have severe avoidance issues. Anyway, updates as I have them.

Update on my financial (possible homelessness) situation

It's like we know you or something :p

"Why not go back to MS?"

No. I would lose my state-provided insurance, meaning no more therapy and my meds would no longer be covered. I'd also lose my SNAP/EBT, which is how I eat. My expenses would shoot up over $1000 a month if I were to go back. Plus I just don't feel safe there anymore.

This is just how it has to be. I'm waiting to be served papers for an eviction hearing, then I go from there. Everything else is just week to week at this point. Things are about to get tougher, but I will persist.

I've devised a plan for being homeless. Storage units are about $140 a month, my stuff will go into there. I'd have to give up Friede for foster care; I'll probably never see her again. My therapist said she'll help me get into a hospital ward, so I'll have food and shelter until I get disability.

I am really, REALLY depressed right now. The past few days I've just woken up and immediately wanted to go back to bed. My normal routine brings me no relief. My optimism has run dry, it feels like no help is coming. I know people care, but I've exhausted all help.

Reposting this in case people missed it. I get times are tough, even $5 helps.

I'd really rather not be doing this. Begging for money is exhausting and humiliating. I don't even know what to say anymore.

Man, it's obvious how tired I was when I posted this. This was for you, @seravium.bsky.social

Today's Yetee shirt is something you might be interested in...

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If you don't hate your previous works as a craftsperson, then you weren't growing. And you've shown a lot of growth, mentally and skill-wise. And with the meds, it's like taking the weighted training clothes off!

Donate to Help Duckie and His Cat Through Tough Times, organized by John Wade Update: Bastet is gone. She crossed the rainbow bridge on Oct 9th. I have remove… John Wade needs your support for Help Duckie and His Cat Through Tough Times

It's been rough since Bastet passed, but I have to move on whether I want to or not. eBay sales have been nonexistent. Other attempts at making money have fallen flat or I've been too depressed. Got a notice on my door. Scared to ask for help again but I don't have a choice.

gofund.me/f75968c2a

And when I say stress, I'm not implying something that you or your pets are or aren't doing, it could be something outside he's seeing. I had a cat once that got stressed that a fat squirrel kept sitting outside the window. A pheromone spray worked in his case.

Have you talked to your vet? It could be urine crystals or a UTI. They'll ask whether there's straining or being vocal while urinating, or going frequently but only passing a small amount. May need antibiotics.

If it's a behavioral issue, such as stress, pheromone diffusers can help.

RabidDuckie: I played Alien: Isolation. Nothing scares me anymore, except old Trump biddies on NextDoor.

I was asked why games don't scare me anymore.

The last few days have disappeared. I played some card games Thursday night online with friends,, which provided much-needed laughter, but I had a hard time sleeping, even after mopping up the entire apartment, cleaning the carpet, and scrubbing the bathroom until the early AM. Friday was a haze spent waiting for the property manager to come by for inspection, which never happened. Then I slept for nearly twenty hours,, with Friede at my side. Friede has been very sweet. I can count on one hand the number of times Friede and Bastet were nice to each other, but I can tell she is not used to Bastet being gone. Every creak and groan of the apartment makes her ears perk up and her head turn, as if she's expecting Bastet to be nearby. I feel guilty that I've enjoyed positive aspects of Bastet being gone. There's no more urine on the floor. No more having to feed her every two hours. No more meds or injections. No more crying as I pet her and tell her I'm sorry. I still miss her, though. I've already decided to get another cat, but ideally it won't be until after I'm able to get on disability. I don't want to bring another cat into the equation while I'm always feeling like I'm about to be evicted. I may spend one more day in mourning, but then I need to get to it. I'm two month's behind on rent now, and I desperately need to raise some funds.

Just a general update.

Same!

(also nice)

I just got back from the vet. Bastet is gone. She was born April 10, 2014, my 34th birthday. I followed her mother to a bush behind the house in Austin, TX where I was living, and I found her and her littermates. She had several quirks that immediately made me love her. I had to teach her to meow. She loved chewing on my finger, even as an adult. She let you know when it was time for food and would paw my monitor if I didn't give in to her demands. She also understood more English than any cat I've met and responded to queries about food by sprinting to the food bow. Whenever I talked to her she responded by wagging her tail like a dog. She loved sitting on my arm (just one) while I watched movies. She was a big part of my stream, too. Viewers loved seeing her on screen, and whenever I would get a tip or a subscription I would hold her in my arms and she would do a little dance. She was very vocal when she was annoyed, but she never once objected to dancing, and would often meow in joy afterward. Her health started to rapidly deteriorate earlier this year. It turned out she had a severe case of diabetes, which I fought so hard to treat, but turned out to be more stubborn than I am. This last week she would hardly move (except to jump on my desk to demand pets or food), often laying on the floor close to where she had just urinated. I couldn't keep her clean, she was obviously in pain, and the treatments weren't working. I made the decision earlier this week to stop her suffering, and the deed was done a little under an hour ago. She passed away on October 10, 2025. I loved her so, so much. She was and will forever be my baby girl.

A picture of an elderly cat

A picture of a two-day old kitten

A picture of me with Bastet sitting in my arm, asleep.

Bastet is gone.

#Bastet

Huh, I wasn't aware of what happened after my retro burnout last year. Good on them for doing the right thing.

Fandy - Baby's First Clip Watch Fandy's clip titled

Aaaaaaand I just watched a baby being born live on Twitch.

Wild day.

www.twitch.tv/fandy/clip/V...

omg why am I watching this I can hear the squishy parts?!?

The GSF called for early embassy intervention, saying it was vital due to the imprisonment and abuses flotilla participants were subject to at the hands of the IOF.

"Silence enables abuse."

This link contains ways to contact various embassies and state departments.

According to the Flotilla Tracker, all 9 Freedom Flotilla Coalition x Thousand Madleens ships have been intercepted.

According to the Global Sumud Flotilla Instagram account, there were nearly 150 people aboard, including "humanitarians, doctors, and journalists across the world"

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I also need to admit something: yes, I did report having the funds needed for Bastet's euthanasia about two weeks ago. I was irresponsible and spent it towards getting my car running so I could get Bastet to the vet.

I just didn't want anyone thinking I was trying to be dishonest.

I was at the vet's office just now, and I was not expecting good news. I already got choked up talking to the vet about how it's probably time to just put Bastet to sleep, how she just sits around on the floor unless she wants food, how her paws are always covered in urine because she doesn't use the litter box to pee anymore, and how she's just not responding to anything we try. They ran the tests for this week, and they agreed -- she's not getting better. We were discussing how much it cost, because the grant I was offered for treatment doesn't cover euthanasia. They told me how much I needed, and I said that I was short a specific amount and "I'd have to figure out how to come up w--" my phone buzzed. I took a peek: someone had just donated that exact amount. I couldn't speak. I was weeping. All I could do was show the office manager the phone and she said "Wow." I have to wait until the funds clear and hit my account, but we made a standing appointment, meaning I can show up at any time and see it done. I still need money for rent asap, but first I'll see that Bastet has been taken care of.

Update on Bastet:

Depressed and scared. Not a single donation so far. I got a notice on the door saying they expect $2,413 immediately or I'm to vacate, and my apartment is being inspected Friday. I also have to take Bastet to the vet in 30 minutes. Not expecting good news.

More than anything on October 7th we should remember how Israel used and continues using it as an excuse to commit Genocide.

I just found an inflatable duck costume.

Hmm...

Summary of expenses:
Rent: $1157
Back rent (and fees): $1256
Electric/Gas: $180
Bastet: $200 (special food, insulin, vet visits, syringes)
Internet: $0 (for 3 mo, then $40)
Phone: $40
Debt: $40
Other (toiletries, other cat's food, smaller bills, gas, random): $120
Food, Medical visits, meds: Covered

Updates from last month: - Bastet has been put on Insulin. Vet visits are now monthly(?) and she's on special prescription food. This has added $200/mo to expenses. As dark as it sounds, that's what I would need to euthanize her, so if it's ever determined that is the best option, it would be taken care of - My car is drivable! It still needs some stuff done to it, but I have a small line of credit usable only for parts and repairs. That's about $30 a month until it's paid off (hence the new "debt" category) Ideally my plan was to get caught up on rent, but as last month's campaign failed I'm on the hook for last month's rent and this month. If successful, next month's request will be almost half - I'm eligible for free phone service but I have no usable phone for it. It's either pay T-Mobile off and use their phone at $110 or pay off US Cellular at $350 and use their phone. I'm still trying to figure out what to do, hence phone bill is at $40/mo - If you're reading this, you're awesome - I've switched ISPs after they gave me a promo for three months free, so that's $40 I won't need for the next few months - My small shop is back online. I sell small, refurbished connectors and the rest of my game collection. It only brought in about $200 last month, but any funds I get from it are immediately deducted from the total needed. I will not ask for beyond what I need at the immediate moment - Regarding my disability, my sleep doctor published the article about me and my condition. It's been provided to the ADRC and Disability Determination Services, who unofficially (as in not my caseworker) called it "fascinating" and "a very useful piece of evidence for both them and the Dr who will be reviewing the case." That's good news, right? Unfortunately they did tell me that the govt shutdown is affecting them slightly so it's adding to the amount of time needed to be assigned a caseworker for my appeal, even though that's handled at the local level (which is still funded)

Updates from last month: