lizard

the idea of him hazing me and remaining pleasant and giggly is actually so funny, good job unconscious brain

dreamt my old therapist who i miss invited me to an event and the event ended up being a theater full of people who were only there to make fun of me for showing up. “nobody likes you, it’s pathetic, you’re obsessed with a therapist named brock” and brock just giggled and smiled at me throughout

i earnestly do not know what lip color looks good on me, a white person with brown nipples who has tried the “match the lip color to your nipples“ thing a million times

earnestly i feel like having a million new england/ny italian aunts and great aunts has made me think menopause is an entire lifetime (they’re talking all the time and 90 percent of the time it is something negative about their own body or someone else‘s)

i have been obsessively tracking her bowel movements with an intensity i could never muster for my own body bc who cares?

coming home to see my senior cat pooped and i'm like "yes diva! yes queen! go off sister! beautiful work angel!" and she's rolling around on her furry warming mat next to the radiator and screaming

have you met? you need to meet!!! you are her vibe.

i might have missed it! my feed cut out during the transition to medals so i missed quite a bit!

i'm OBSESSED

I cannot tell who I love more, Alyssa Liu or Alyssa Liu's wine dad coaches.

did she just lean into camera and say 'that's what i'm fuckin talking about?' bc blessed angel!!!!!!!

i've been passively watching the olympics and i can safely say i'm obsessed with alyssa liu, the 20-year-old figure skater from oakland, california. she's so cool and fun and has little tooth gems and striped hair and is having the time of her life, god bless her.

i am obsessed with her, every single thing about her

scout, a dilute tortie, leans into view from behind a coffee table with a very angry hissing face.

was cleaning out my computer and found this picture of scout spending time with her pet sitter

plz help, i read about "sundowning in elderly cats" and i am having a meltdown

i have had to train myself to stop smiling and saying hi to people bc the rejection when i moved here made me feel fuckin insane

i’m always like “omg i’ve gotten so ugly no one even smiles at me anymore” forgetting that people in chicago are clinically unfriendly

i know them!!!!! wow!!!!

these are my old coworkers! ROC Minnesota has been doing this work for a LONG time. restaurant labor organizing, especially in Minneapolis and other metropolitans is largely about protecting immigrant rights! CTUL and ROC Minnesota are wonderful!!!!!

my passion is looking into scouts eyes and softly crying while i wait for my sleep meds to kick in.

(this is my autism/ocd super power)

i would sit out here and chain smoke and she would walk around on the edge and sniff and sleep in the sun.

a person with bleach blonde hair and sunglasses holds a tortie cat on a balcony. the city of omaha is visible behind them.

me and scout 11 years ago in my first solo apartment. she has always had the same posture.

have never really been a youtube guy but have discovered "what in my bag, autism edition" as a concept and woo buddy i'm in

ICE doesn't ever "leave" any state. There will continue to be ICE and CBP enforcement actions as there were during previous presidents. Hillary Clinton was saying this in her remarks. She doesn't like the visible violence but she is fine with "regular" violence.

I've been saying since early 2025 that people were and are in motion... Some people have insisted that 'no one is doing anything' and they are wrong.

whenever i approach being happy, my body and brain search for a thing to slowly chew me up until i am rock bottom again. it rules, i love it, it's great to be made in a lab to seek misery to feel safe.

on night meds but silverio, renee, alex, víctor, heber, all being right around my age fucks me up in the "wow it is so hard to be alive and your mid/late 30s is where you get to be a person."

this is also me holding 100s of people i have connected to in one way or another who have died inside.

i thought someone took my handle on here so i came back but i will not be posting bc it is no longer acceptable to post pictures of your whole ass and rack on social media so what's the point

it's the time of year i get in trouble because i see someone hateable while driving and just say HA at the top of my lungs without ever thinking about it