cyd

sorry, i'm still scared of interacting directly and also i wasn't reading fic on ao3 at the time because of reasons, but i'm pretty sure the first bts ship i had big feelings about was sope!

BBC World Service - The Forum, The rise of fans and fandom Iszi Lawrence and guests discuss the history and inexorable rise of fandom

i was kinda scared to listen to this, but it's actually pretty good! of course the terf queen's main moneymaker is discussed while the harm she's intentionally doing with it isn't, presumably because bbc 🙄 but army is well-represented! 💜

my copy of rilke's book of hours, that is

Photo of a page from Rilke's Book of Hours: Love Poems to God (the translation by Anita Barrows and Joanna Macy). The poem is number I, 59, and reads: God speaks to each of us as he makes us, then walks with us silently out of the night. These are the words we dimly hear: You, sent out beyond your recall, go to the limits of your longing. Embody me. Flare up like flame and make big shadows I can movie in. Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror. Just keep going. No feeling is final. Don't let yourself lose me. Nearby is the country they call life. You will know it by its seriousness. Give me your hand.

omg, of course i stayed up all night doing non-bangtan shit on the day they came back and missed the live 😭

comforting myself with the knowledge that joon and i have similar taste in rilke lines, this poem was one of two marked with a physical object in my copy when i took it off the shelf today

it just seems like wanting to impregnate kpop boys is so common, i hope SOMEONE out there is indulging themself rather than feeling weird about it. it's your fic! you can just get that man pregnant yourself if you want!!

have been suddenly hit by a desire to know if xreader writers ever write mpreg. like. is the venn diagram of mpreg enjoyers and xreader enjoyers two discrete circles or nah?? i am neither, so idk how to assuage this curiosity

lol @ joon going all "hey, i bought this sofa less than a month ago!" when jk just got HURLED over the back of it 😂

so, just quickly: queen of swords for a very intelligent/logical person delivering a painful truth; temperance for someone who's balanced & in-control of themself; the tower for sudden change/awakening (that typically messes you up); and the 3 of swords... basically means exactly what it looks like!

i'm a tarot amateur & while i've studied each card i still chose these largely intuitively/based on vibes, so i kinda didn't want to explain them in case someone came in like "um, actually x card means y" and also words can be hard 😅 but i think maybe i could have explained a LITTLE bit lol

Photo of the card, which features a heart floating in the sky and pierced from above by three swords.

card four, how i think yoongi actually is: three of swords

Photo of the card, which features an illustration of lightning striking a stone tower and two people falling from it.

card three, how i think namjoon actually is: the tower (models' pronouns: he/him)

Photo of the card, which features an illustration of a figure standing with one foot on grass and the other on water. In the context of the deck, the imagery indicates the figure is an angel, or something like one. They are holding two goblets and pouring something from one into the other.

card two, how i think yoongi seems to namjoon: temperance (model's pronouns: they/them)

Photo of the card, which features an illustration of a person sitting on a throne and holding a sword in one hand with the blade pointing up. Her other hand is open and outstretched.

card one, how i think namjoon seems to yoongi: queen of swords (model's pronouns: she/her)

Photo of four cards from the Queer Tarot (by Ashley Molesso & Chess Needham) laid out on a blanket in two rows of two. The deck is a brightly-colored reinterpretation of the Rider-Waite-Smith deck.

thread to illustrate my comment on chapter 14 of Verified Amateurs [ONLINE NOW] (one of my very favorite namgi fics, by @beebalmff.bsky.social )

(to be clear, i find this interesting from a "how words & concepts are stored/accessed in the brain" point of view; it says almost nothing about my korean ability, which is, uh... not great)

...i just misplaced the word "cursory" (remembered it existed in english but couldn't remember the word itself) and had to look up "대충" in a korean-english dictionary to find it 😅

library ordered 4 copies of a book i suggested, i feel so powerful

Gender Euphoria and the Superbloom That winter was long and full of records: / snow up to our chests and the chill deep in our cells,

trying to reawaken the poet in me by reading more poems, and i really like "Gender Euphoria and the Superbloom" by Jennifer Huang. (also, as a partly–namjoon-biased army, i'm perceiving some really cool intertextuality in it.) you can read and/or listen to it here:
poets.org/poem/gender-...

alt text for quoted video: montage of recent photos of jin from bts. in one of the photos, which is also the thumbnail, jin is wearing pants and a form-fitting sleeveless shirt. he's not literally naked, but in the context of how he usually dresses, it's a lot

took a moment to dry-sob into one hand about him being naked and then when i looked back at the screen i had accidentally zoomed WAY in on said nakedness so i took even more damage ✌️

my endless thanks to whoever is responsible for lee mujin service already doing this

i love Killing Voice, but it would be so great if they could include soft subtitles, especially since the hard subtitles are often white on white and therefore nearly illegible

YouTube video by Gordon Lightfoot - Topic If You Could Read My Mind

i'm still scared of actively engaging with other people's posts on here, but i just remembered the #1 song i want to hear a member of bts cover, and it's "if you could read my mind" by gordon lightfoot, which i think yoongi would absolutely kill

by "publish" i mean "post to ao3", not, like, file the serial numbers off. just in case that wasn't clear

got a hopekook ficlet i want to publish, but there's a simile in it that i love so much i'm worried i may have read it in someone else's fic. it's possible it just sounds familiar to me because hobi has a lyric about something similar, but like. what if?

gaming with jk 🥰
(playing yukon solitaire with weverse open in the background)

got swallowed up for a while by the need to figure out my switch from windows to linux, but now that that's done i'm trying to get back into doing other things, and...

on the plus side: life is full of cool things i want to do!
on the minus(?) side: brain feels like it's full of cats (unherdable)

omg i finally posted the pirate princess jin ficlet i drafted in june this morning only to find out later that jin had just called himself a princess again?? i promise i didn't post it as a reaction to this latest time, i just think about him calling himself that a lot

oh, lol, i zoomed out my browser and the new post button is back where i remember it being. not so different after all!

good news! i finally finished reading all the updated policies, so i'm BACK

things seem to be a bit different around here now, though, so it took me a while to figure out how to make a post😅