Keesa McKoy

You must have saw me somewhere lol

I feel her cuz even Za noticed I curse now. This moment is so crazy and has shattered so many norms, cursing on social is on the table, cuz sometimes things are so wild only a curse word encapsulates it. 🤣

9pm is so generous. How about 2 days later.

I got a trainer about 5 weeks ago, and I’m inspired by how strong he thinks I am, and then how I am able to do everything he gives me.

Today he made me do 60lb goblet squats, and 220lb leg presses. And woo! I really thought nothing more than 20lbs in my hands and 100lbs for my legs lol.

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This is what happens when we accept cruelty as something that just happens to *those* people who I convince myself *deserve* it.

This is years in the making emboldened by the ongoing dismissiveness of the state’s cruelty to poor black people—even by centrists and “liberals”

It was 81 degrees today in NE and I’m not complaining.

My daughter decided to photograph me and now I have my favorite picture! 🥰

One of my favorite things is when Za tells me she wants to talk. And not really because she has anything in particular to say, but just that she likes talking to me.

She’ll come lay with me and we talk about every and anything, and her desire to detach and talk warms me up.

Za calls Ms Houston the diva version of Ms Rachel and it makes me giggle.

“Were pulled” is just fucking outrageous!

Who did the pulling???? Why??

What in the passive hell?

She also hasn’t grown. We are basically age mates and after maybe the second album, I feel like I’ve gotten older and she hasn’t.

The teenage early 20s angst is still all over the music.

I’m so very happy to say I been way ahead of the curve.

Taylor’s music is like unseasoned white rice and chicken breast.

Always been that way—she gets going with a good melody occasionally (I.e., I Knew You Were Trouble) but her meteoric fame far surpasses the quality of her discography.

The way I be forgetting my car needs maintenance.

Hundreds of dollars later 🤦🏾‍♀️ after going in for just an oil change.

I’ve been quiet on here because I just genuinely cannot do this for work and in my very little free time I have.

I cannot sit in my loneliness and this world’s problems all the time. I feel myself sinking into depression. And I been doing everything to keep my nose out the water.

Which is what Black people have been saying about law enforcement for centuries.

No one listened though. Now here we are.

On the days I don’t have Za, I can go long periods without touch, up to days.

My job is through a screen, I spend so much time at home, my workouts are solo. I am feeling the weight of loneliness in a way that I just never have—for the last 1.5 years. I used to be ashamed but I’m trying to shed it

I think a lot about what I miss about my childhood & what made it feel easier.

All of it comes back to a central thing—community & bonding. So much group play—whether it was dandy shandy, cricket games with makeshift bats, Chinese jump rope, etc. And I feel so disconnected as an adult.

Double Dutch is honestly so cool. It wasn’t a thing back home, I wish it was!

Him was not my kinda party at all. A complete miss.

I want my money back.

Exactly this. Most people don’t even realize anything is happening, or care.

This is why I appreciate people who study history. And people who never take their foot off the brakes towards progressivism, truth and justice.

We got a little too comfortable—everything we live is a big experiment in the grand scheme of things, nothing is guaranteed.

The deep levels of inequity we accepted.

How easy it was for folks to deny the effects of what chattel slavery and racism was doing to people in this country.

How unequal and vastly different our eduction system is/was.

The “money rules everything” embedded in everything

The signs were there.

Plainly, I just think so many people just don’t see a problem.

That’s what scares me.

I think this but almost backwards. That the people putting the country under heat genuinely think they are standing up for America.

Better said, how did we get to such vastly different concepts of things like “free speech” “democracy” and “freedom”

It makes it hard for anyone to do anything!

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I hate to say it but I do not get the rapture jokes.

Someone, be kind and tell me what I missed

Anyone who knows me knows how much I value friendship. I’ve had most of my friends for yrs (over 10 yrs—as long as HS).

I’ve had to make my own family as the only child of my mom who primarily raised me, and I’m most proud of the friends I’ve chosen. I don’t know how I’d survive life without them.

This is such a great question.

I’ve been best friends with my bestie since 9th grade—we’ve gone through 22 years of life together. She shows up, we talk almost everyday like the beginning—aka she makes time, she’s smart, savvy, honest and is the best host!

Oh, send me a link!

Thank you!!

Who can afford to run will run, but what about those who can’t they will have to stay

Opportunity a scarce scarce commodity. In these time I say

When mama spend har last and send you go class, never you ever play.