ZombieMcMew

Left one of the oldest discord servers I’ve been in since a gender ago. While it did get the family bar treatment of everyone’s wives and fishing pics it just isn’t the same.

I am all that is woman. Still have machinist hands of might grip for jar tops.

Wake up thought. (So still a lot of rx drugs in me) if there are reference photos, code, articles for this thing. Get them now before the digital library of Alexandria burns.

Just like. Taint and bits I haven’t purchased yet on fire

I am full of iodine now. And I have not had hot pants like that since I was 14. I know they said warm, but they didn’t specify where.

looking at that big ole steam library wondering what even works still and if my brain is even capable of playing it at this point.

so 16mg a day of lorazepam seems to have my catatonia under control. but now I just don't have the wind in my sails to do much else, out of work, burned out still. need a cane in the mornings due to migraine adjunct gabapentin

A war hammer with a twisted steel haft sits on an anvil

Punishing Angel

Decorated my cane

I’d like to quit surviving and be human just one moment is my god damn life.

Honestly my other problem is who‘s just some rando I talk to? vs more.

If all the apps and websites vanished, would you miss me and know how to reach me or would that be that? Like as IRC and AIM slowed down and you always wonder.

A comic of two foxes, one of whom is blue, the other is green. In this one, Blue is sitting next to Green, who has curled up into a tight ball, looking miserable. Green: Would you still love me if I never got better? Blue hesitates a moment before answering. Blue: What a silly thing to ask. Joining Green on the floor, Blue wraps himself around Green, who doesn't seem as sad anymore. Blue: I would love you even if you got worse.

i hope it’s all our eyes god is looking through.

Paying dearly for missing midnights dose wtf.

So much like my life was 20 years ago. I have to start over practically from nothing just with a little bit more money and a lot less health.

I successfully backdoored my way into a position that I couldn’t afford To get the usual way. Now I need shit tons of drugs just to move around or make a PB&J sandwich.

at 17 I set a 20 year trajectory starting with BLS data, to get from zero to design engineer by doing every shitty welding and machining job I could get my hands on. did everything I could to learn everything. And climb up before my body deteriorated. that part is over and now I’m burned out.

Flicking the ruler over the button like Konata playing track and field in Luck Star.

Not finding bookshelf speaker stands I like more than the idea of four concrete blocks and a gallon can of paint.

Much like my caller ID I expect to have half of North America muted before too much longer, yay word filters.

hooray, I could play a pvp game and have a positive kdr. That's a huge milestone cuz I haven't had the time or mental/physical ability since the spring I think!

It's gonna be really fucking funny if I do this one consultation for my doctor and I don't have ADHD/ASD as a test result. I have ALWAYS been the other in the room with little green antenna sticking out my head it seems.

Two years on that magic blue pill! Wish is was all 10 years earlier but I needed a roof over my head and to put thing straight.

Well since I’m a free agent now I might as well look around when I’m ready. Burned SO hard yet nobody was going to say stop as they’re worried if I could safely drive home or use a screwdriver. Lunch/coffee dates for now.

legit been wanting to do relay/classic ladder for a while.

Fuck I don’t wanna think about that.

Just gotta make it happen one of these days.

NE regional again for follow up appointment.