Teddy Rannila

i'd love to stay friends, Carly. teddyrannila@gmail.com

Am going to stop posting here.

Social media implies there will be contact. I get one like per 20 posts here and while I appreciate that like, I'm going back to where I have at least a little interaction.

I guess y'all can consider my Bsky account defunct. Look me up on fb or Threads.

Sad.

me in a Dicks tshirt

#texaspunk

me in 2017, i weighed 375 lbs here.

Me from the summer of 2025, i weigh 248 here.

Before/after 2017 vs now. #weightlossjourney

A good first date, we walked down an Albuquerque alleyway just talking.

I think I'd like to see her again.

Meeting her at noon at a park up the road. I'm not really nervous anymore, after the conversations we've had this last week, I'm just curious.

Certain things cannot be faked.

Lets find out.

After chatting again all day I think we're going to try meet for the first time irl tomorrow.

So nervous, but so curious too.

Overwhelmed with swooning yall
Shes just like me.

A delay, but it's not a problem. We're still looking at meeting up but check engine lights come first.

Happy dance:

My only real goal for today is to not psych myself out about tomorrow. The worst thing that could happen? I've made a new friend.

Sticking to the plan, follow the rules, just be myself. I realize this might sound simple to everyone else but I'm pretty well know for fucking things up.

I asked a new girl out and she said yes!

I'm batting pretty high on fb dating. I've had 5 dates in total and one two year relationship. Now another date? Not too bad. 😃😃😃

My therapist reminded me I'm not looking for an escape, my actual goal is survival. I should expand my circle, break routines, disrupt repetition. Even an act like walking home in a new direction can shift the focus.

The aim is to change it up. Break rhythm, survive.

Such a good #therapy session.

I like the bee one. Buzz buzz.

I have a strange feeling that tonight might be a little more than just another average night for me. Of course I recognize that could be pure delusion too, I tend to lead with my heart.

I just really like this one, y'all. Cross your fingers for me, okay?

Teddy in a New Model Army t shirt

Cool band shirt of the day: #NewModelArmy

Remembering my Dad today, Retired E-8 USAF '63-'83. A bipolar alcoholic/addict with 4 divorces, he once told me I was a much better father than he had been.

Whenever I was struggling as a parent, I would deliberately do the opposite of what he would have done. Pretty simple.

Thank you Dad.

you got your chocolate in my peanut butter

Old punk band tshirts are the best.

Kind of in an off mood since yesterday. I'm going to keep to myself tonight and try focus on my responsibilities, and to do my best to mind my own business.

Going to try to focus on constructive and creative things.

(the only regret is misspelling the word regret in the above post...)

My kids got a Chevy Bolt with the money Weckiai won when she was on Jeopardy! (3x champ!!!)

Love that car, so grateful they went with a diffrent brand of electric vehicle, no regets... but that fire thing scares me.

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My dating profile says NO MAGA, but I guess some people think that means no MAGA except them.

I was nice, but shook her hand at the end instead of hugging her and wished her well.

My therapist is going to tell me not to let this stop me from meeting other people, but God damn.

God damn.

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I told her "Sweetie that's just not true. He's the worst of them all. He's the reason for the mess we are in."

She looked at me and said "Well at church they say he's going to save us. I'm not very smart, so I don't vote."

I haven't been shocked like that in a while, haha.

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So today's #AwfulFirstDate was something else. In addition to several other glaring red flags (getting lost at a major intersection, discussing her former meth cook within the first 5 minutes) she told me Trump was sent by God to remove all the corrupt politicians.

My jaw hit the floor.

Your humble narrator wearing a Dead Moon T-shirt.

D for disaster, E for my eyes, A for anger, D until I die, M for Mona, O oh good, O oh good, N for the night
DEAD MOON NIGHT
DEAD MOON NIGHT

I'm going on a coffee date with a new friend this morning. My therapist told me this is incredibly healthy for me, because I'm building connection, practicing emotional presence and reclaiming agency. It's supposed to build confidence too.

I'm still nervous though.

My bedroom window underneath the Albuquerque moon.

My bedroom window underneath the Albuquerque moon.

A much safer quail season this year coming up.