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Merci Théa... Je gère trop mal le deuil mais je fais au mieux ❤️‍🩹

Right ? I was very lucky to have him :') so lucky

Thank you.. ngl it's tough for me, I'm not dealing well and I'm doing my best but I don't deal with grief very well :( I tried my best to not be too negative or toxic tho... I'll do my best ❤️‍🩹 Raika and Nooky still need me after all:)

I hope I made him very happy... That his heart was full with me

There wasn't a day I wouldn't have him in mind

I have so many pictures up close of him cleaning himself because whenever I would rub his ear he would consider it as me cleaning him (like bunnies cleaning each other)

His pet carrier was always open and he never jumped out because he felt safest with me, he would just look around like this. He was curious about the outside world

He would always come to my bedroom door like "what u doing"

He always had this expression of peacefulness whenever I carried him. That's how strong our bond was

I want to share some pics of Shigu and I

Nooky used to play a lot with Shigu, even a day before his death.. but they didn't share a pen (which probably helped)

I guess I'm "glad" that Nooky isn't depressed that Shigu is gone, he is still eating okay... Bunnies can starve themselves once they are heartbroken by losing their friend but he is okay
That's a relief

I hope the shelf can arrive before he does, so I can get everything ready:(

Shigu has successfully arrived at the crematorium place, it took 2-3 hours of drive, I can see where he is from a tracking number
It's a shame I cannot stay with him and have to wait home

Thank you..

Thank you Aura.. Yes he was, he was my world he was everything to me, he was the biggest reason I stayed alive in a time I was in a very bad place and he gave me love in a dysfunctional family that didn't show how to show affection
He was so much

Is the "anger" stage of grief ? Because the anger starts to hit

I think I became bitter as I lost Shigu, I lost my world and some people I've known for years saw the news and yet didn't bother to show empathy, support about it

I guess it just tells me that some people just didn't care when I used to and didn't deserve my friendship :')

Thank you Eugene.. he was my world ❤️‍🩹

Thank you Kyara :) ❤️‍🩹

It really does look like him

Making this is helping me a lot, whenever I miss him I feel like I have something that can "be" him and reminds me that he loves me

I hope the cremation service will take care of him with all the respect he deserves..

I'm gonna make a file on my computer named Shigu too...

I'm starting to collect every photos I had of Shigu from all my old phones's gallery
I really hope I can find more videos too

Thank you that's for his future shelf dedicated to him and his ashes... I hope he'll like it

It's a clay statue of shigu

Almost done

As a highly sensitive person, my emotions can be stronger than the average and it can be intimidating for them... But Shigu wasn't afraid, he wasn't even afraid of the smell of my blood back then when I had bad mood swings

I miss it

I miss having a bunny that would let me carry him, that wouldn't be scared of my huge amount of love and emotions... That's something I only shared with Shigu
Raika and Nooky are either uncomfortable by being carried or by my emotions :( ...

It's been 2 or 3 days Shigu passed away and I'm crying less, probably because I don't have enough tears
I'm able to slowly do things to keep myself distracted but whenever I talk about him, tears fall on its own