Queen Millicent Bystander

It’s fine!😄
I’m fine! 🥹
Everything. Is. Fine! 🥲

“Just try to be.”

Catra is one of the most important characters in all of media for me. And it is because Catra has the same wounds I do. I saw them again listening to Breach this morning. And the triumph over those wounds and demons is not going to be loud and raucous. It will be tired and soft.

I expected that Breach was going to be difficult for the Clancy. I did not expect it would be difficult for me. I did not expect to hear lyrics that so simply and delicately sliced me open like razors. I did not expect to be hearing Vessel. I did not expect to see my demons.

Catra - Breach

Breach is the final installment in the Blueryface saga and, much like Catra’s story, it was not what I expected. You would think, that after a decade long story about combatting an inner demon, the end would be a raucous celebration of liberation. At least I did.

“[Clancy] would swim the Paladin Strait, Without any flotation, Just a glimpse of visual aid, Of you on the other shoreline, Waiting… expectations that I’m gonna make it.”

Adora - Clancy

Clancy is probably my FAVORITE top album, and Adora is my favorite everything. Lore tells us the album is about preparing for a final showdown. The album itself tells us it is an introspective look at what makes Clancy, CLANCY. And most notable among this things?

Glimmer - Blurryface

Blurryface is the first album in the eponymous saga and an introduction to the character, as well as the struggle against him. There are themes of frustration, nostalgia, anxiety, and, most prevalent, the feeling of coming up short. See Glimmer in S4.

Bow - Scaled & Icy

Scaled & Icy is, seemingly, twenty one pilots most upbeat album. But if you’re hip to the lore you (or listen to lyrics) you know the themes are still quite somber but they are wrapped up in a bit of a forced positivity. So why Bow? See S4E8 “Boys Night Out”

And made the healdliner (MGMT) look like chumps.

And while I cannot rap for shit, that all changes for (the first verse) of Ode to Sleep.

Now that I have established myself an expert…

I have also been a twenty one pilots fan since high school. I saw them perform at a local music festival in the Vessel era. Tyler climbed the scaffolding of the stage in a Mickey Mouse print shirt and Josh crowd surfed on a slab of glorified press board. They were the openers.

What are my qualifications? I have watched She-Ra (SPOP) so many times I can recite most episodes nearly word for word and my fanfiction has been praised *specifically* for characterization.

I have been waiting for this day for a very long time and I am STOKED that, with the release of Breach, I can now do this -

The Best Friend Squad as twenty one pilots albums.

The AU I just started is basically Viktor asking, “Would you still love me if I was a worm? But also I was your ex-wife?” And Jayce is just like, “Yup!” while “E.T.” by Katy Perry is playing in the background.
#jayvik #jaycexviktor

I got a spam comment for the first time today. It is WEIRDLY discouraging.

Song of the Stars has an update! #jayvik #fanfic

archiveofourown.org/works/64020568…

(the first meme is so much more meme if you've seen New Girl 😔 But it was all I could think about)

I’M REWATCHING NEW GIRL TOO!!! (though… when am I not?)

I made Jayce & Viktor charm bracelets this week for Jayce’s birthday. I’m so very normal about them. #jayvik

Wow I can’t believe that Lorde made the bigender album of the century 🥲

I open this app for the first time in a week and this is what I see. I don’t think anything will be able to top it in terms of pain or joy. Time to log off again 🙃

A digital illustration of Adora and Catra from She-Ra (2018). It’s based on Save the Cat; Adora has her hair down and her face scratched and bruised as she sits on the floor of Prime’s ship with a dying Catra laying in her lap. Adora’s shoulder are hunched and trembling, and she laces her fingers together with Catra’s. Catra is laying on her back, one arm across Adora’s leg with her palm up. He upper half of her face is hidden by Adora’s - you can only make out her parted lips, nose and freckles. She wears her chipped outfit, her hair chopped short. Her tail is curling behind her. She lays in a pool of her own blood; it stains the back of her clothes, Adora’s knees. Specks of blood dried under her nose, stains her teeth, and drips down to her cheek where it gets mixed with Adora’s tears falling on her face. While on Catra’s side, the background is dark, on the opposite side, there is a blinding, growing light as losing her is going to awake She-Ra.

“I’m not leaving without you.”

cw: blood | #spopsky #shera #spop #catradora #catra #adora #dandyvelaart |

“I Am Easy to Find” got FOUR guest kudos yesterday and I cannot believe that just *happened.* Is someone out there still proselyting the good fic? 🥹

*crying on floor listening to “Iris” by The Goo Goo Dolls*

Oh? Me? I’m fine! 😘

This is my formal apology to all of my Catradora/Lips readers. I know 😔 I did the thing I wasn’t gonna. It could happen again. BUT I WILL NEVER ABANDON A WIP.

Maybe read my fic? Maybe? 🥺 archiveofourown.org/works/64020568 #jayvik

I swear I’m working on Lips but my best friend comes in from California today and I gotta make my house clean so I can convince him that I have my life together even though he knows better than anyone I do not.

Oh I am soooo excited for you to see the nonsense I do next.

Mmmmm, not sure that’s true. But I’ll review the logs.

WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME?!

Been re-reading Lips of an Angel so that I can write it and… did you guys know it’s like… good?