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sometimes i read posts from women online with the same physical problem, their dead bedrooms and disappointing hinge dates, and if anything it makes me feel worse. i'm not like them and i don't want to be. i don't want to resign myself to thinking of sex as something other people want from me

so many reasons for me to have a complicated relationship to sex but "it burns when i put anything in there" is high on the list

it comes and goes and i'm sure it'll get better for a while before then getting worse again but it bums me out that having an active and fulfilling sex life to the extent that i want is maybe not in the cards. not for now anyway

pelvic pain making sex of any kind feel sort of unpleasant but mostly like nothing really sucks

i think my art style is too immediately clockable as How I Draw for me to make the kind of cringe/problematic fetish art i would like to make sometimes which is annoying

yeah like i am visibly trans but i also cant seamlessly assimilate into cis masculinity bc i dont look like a normal adult cis man and maybe never will

if someone jokingly told me i should detransition i would truly literally never talk to them again

tbh i do complain more than i maybe should abt my particular lot in life as a trans guy but even to me this reads like someone who needs to get better friends

pain in general really getting to me today

lower back pain really getting to me today

have a magical manul monday

HAPPY MANUL MONDAY

knew two siblings when i was a kid. one of them now works in city planning and is posting photos from an international vacation, the other one is an intermittently homeless babyfur. just the way things shake out sometimes i guess

yeah me and homsar go way back

The Ideal Form

i don't really draw furry art anymore but i know i'm still a furry at heart bc sometimes i just wish i could look like this

i wish there were more fake internet jobs though. i understand that there was a time when there were more. i should've gotten to have one

working on "drawing nudity" dont think im very good at this

yeah i think flinching pre-emptively causes me problems but it's a hard habit to break. i want everyone to like me all the time

i like exploitation horror! i like melodrama! im normal

why does it have to feel like a whole thing if i want to put more gore and sexual violence in my art. like i havent earned it bc im not traumatized enough. like nobody bats an eye that i talk abt liking takashi miike or dennis cooper but if i put even a tenth of that into *my* work...

bong design i thought of. does anywhere sell this

i wonder if my mom will get pissed abt the parent stuff in the chapter of the comic coming up. i hope not. i think it's relatively charitable

impulsively ordered a yellow velour button down and shorts

im not really dressing fruity these days. when i put effort into an outfit its more like if napoleon dynamite were a white rapper

stylish/cheap/masculine enough to assuage my gender neuroses. no article of clothing is all three

i need to draw good tboy porn but im so bad at anatomy and so lazy

if you give the trans guy in your pornographic drawing an undercut or sideshave that 100 percent precludes me ever finding it hot

being a games journalist possibly the only job faker than being a web cartoonist