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bob ross from bob 's burgers is standing in front of a closet with clothes hanging on it . ALT: bob ross from bob 's burgers is standing in front of a closet with clothes hanging on it .

Darn these morals of mine for being so big and loud. Darn them to heck.

Tbh I'm gonna be fine and I'm glad my Kobo has buttons; it really won't be that bad and I'm probably just gonna get a different case and I'll adjust but this is just me rn:

BSFFR my dog broke my page turner and this is such a first world problem rn but I have flu brain and I just wanted to be a lil burrito and read and now I have to click my button and I'm mad I have to use brain power I don't have to solve this bc I refuse to shop on Amazon anymore 😭

It's really crazy that when you choose to stop using the BiG gIaNt as an online source, you suddenly find that things are a lot harder to find outside of it.

Sort of like that's their whole point, huh.

I will never shut up about how the book, Life of Pi, changed my life.

I read it in middle school and it quite literally changed the chemistry of my brain. It altered the way I think.

I'm re-reading it right now and I've been brought to tears many times. I'm halfway done.

A story; a work of art.

I literally feel like every time I sit down to try and take a breath and have some bone-snooze-brain-rot time I have to roll back and get caught back up on the despair I missed, just in case I missed the end of the fucking world.

What the FUCK is even happening anymore and WHERE do I go to stop it.

I was just standing outside last night screaming at the sky because I am so fucking ENRAGED that I finally heal to a place of happiness and health & the world starts collapsing???

"YOU DON'T GET TO DO THIS TO ME! Not now; not after I've worked this hard. I have suffered ENOUGH. I deserve peace."

And like, personally? Emotionally? Mentally (and self discovery pathway) sort of health?

Best I have ever been. Genuinely, I am at my top tier qualify of life.

If anyone is wondering, I am doing quite poorly thanks

The midterm elections are in 644 days.

"Do you even remember what you read? How can you if you've read 7 books this month?"

I consume books like people consume television and music, and I remember all the books I read and I review them too.

Books are my peace; to be lost in another world is to be safe.

FAIRY PORTAL FAIRY PORTAL FAIRY PORTAL

WELL EVIDENTLY I DON'T HAVE TO DO THAT?? I can just... *move* the space heater around my house to warm up the rooms I'm going to be in.

Just can go to bed at 7p like I'm on a low broil setting or something AND SAVE MONEY?

only costs $80 one time; follow me for more life hacks. 💅

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The incredible thing is that this space heater is strong enough to warm up my entire bedroom, and my house has absolutely horrific heating because it is O L D with leaky windows and radiators that work in 1/3 of the rooms.

I gave up on $$$ gas bills and chose to freeze, set the therm to 65.

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I have had this space heater since before September and it has taken me until now to realize I can just.. unplug it and bring it to different rooms in my house. This realization was brought to me by frozen pipes.

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IT WORKED BY THE WAY HAHA

I GET TO TAKE A HOT SHOWER

I've never had this happen. It's finally 6°F here and it was -4°F when I woke up. I don't really *need* hot water but I know it's a problem.

I guess just let that go for a while and hope it works? Give it the college try? 😅

So I have no hot water in my bathroom, but I do in my kitchen. I went to my basement to try and find my pipes that went up there and it was a lost cause.

I decided to hot box my bathroom with my space heater as a first attempt, aiming the heater under the cabinet where the pipes are for the tub.

Update I sure did fall asleep by 9p and I was awake by 7a 😭

I want to stay up all night and read like I did when I was a teenager bc there's no school (so no work for me) but ofc it's 8:30 and I'm drooling on the couch already 😭

BEING OLD STINKS why do I have an internal bedtime

Curse these bone timers

I am on Fable most actively for the book community, but Bky & Tumblr are my mains now. Not going back to TT & a FK U to meta.

I read mostly romance, dark romance & fantasy, and anything exciting or thought provoking; I'll try out ANYTHING once! I LOVE a good book and am not afraid to DNF.

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I'm currently in the grieving process and really thankful for therapy this week to help me process through some of it. It's a very conflicting time to be human and I am really thankful this is a shared emotion for a large community.

One thing before tomorrow:

Use your local libraries.

Get your card.

Borrow books, manga, films, audios, ebooks.

Recommend titles for purchase (usually online).

Attend promoted activities.

Fill out those "How are we doing?" questionnaires.

Tell your kids that libraries are good.

They are.

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Actually I think it's okay to say I'm just fucking scared right now.

I'm really, really scared.

I clawed my way out of the underworld 6 years ago and started finding myself shortly after.. it brings me so much peace to finally feel like I have somewhere to call home; that I am someone who is home.

Knowing myself after so long is such a joy. I am so happy to be alive.

In a way it feels like I'm laying to rest everything that no longer serves me. I feel like I'm finding peace, and it feels good.

It feels like I'm coming home.

In a way it sort of has changed my brain and feels like I'm entering a new era? Like a new phase of my life. I'll be 30 this year and I just feel like I'm the most authentic I've ever been.

I think the real weird thing about choosing to phase off of meta apps is that I have deleted them from my home pages and changed the main "folder" I have there which has my reading apps, Tumblr, bsky, snap, etc

Hi & welcome ~ I am a curly-haired human bean who drives bus and reads a lot. I have 3 dogs and a lemon zest for life.

I spread joy every day like it's contagious and I'm thankful you're here 💝✨

a human bean is giving a thumbs up in a mauve colored outfit with a scarf wrapped around their head, holding a coffee in a very art-deco alleyway

Shall I compare thee to a winters day? Cold, bleak, and smelling slightly of mildew?

No?

Okay.