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what's the point

irrational fear of all of my friends having some kind of Realization that i'm fat and abandoning me

internalized fatphobia is such a disease. why do i want to skip thanksgiving with my family just bc i take up space?? it's not like it's a secret that i'm fat i've always been fat my whole family knows i'm fat

sleeping like shit again even tho i fixed my bed and now i'm having crazy pants dreams too

if you move out take me with you

whatever

i am nothing

the meds actually do a good job of preventing my usual feelings of doom and despair but they've been replaced by emptiness

like if you're gonna change then at least improve?? why are you a worse person than you were 5 years ago you're going backwards

i know that change is normal and it's not realistic for everyone to stay the same but some of my loved ones are becoming people i do not recognize and that scares me

i hate seeing people change

wanted to take a few days off from work but my coworker is having an emergency which means i gotta be more involved so no naps for me 💔

man whatever.

why do i even bother

my best friend is moving 1000 miles away i hope i die

babysitting all weekend again... i'm never having kids

i'm so fucking annoying

my parents, my brothers, religion, food. the common issue in all of my relationships is me

what's it like to have a healthy relationship with your parents and food?

ah yes, psychological torment that only a mother could inflict on her child

why do i have to wake up why cant i sleep forever

never change

i love the way this is worded

brain so horribly empty i cant even catch up with the gc

terrifying

every time i leave this godforsaken house my mother lets herself into my room and rearranges everything according to her whims

been having some weird sleep these past few nights and i had a nightmare last night. i also happened to start taking an ssri a few days ago so im hoping this is an unfortunately timed coincidence and not a side effect

my brain is wired incorrectly. i need to send it in for repair like a set of nintendo switch joycons

i love being nosy