not me

when other ppl think about motherhood they probably yearn for children meanwhile i feel pure terror and inadequacy and my stomach starts to hurt

bf confirmed i will not be a mandatory womb that helps a bit

fawk im thinking about motherhood and crying this has gotta be the hormone change

my mom got dinner for everyone except me and i didnt fully crash out so thats something

so far i dont feel worse but not necessarily better either

either gonna be legendary crashouts or peace and stability 🧘‍♀️

starting my new birth control today everyone pray for me

id love not to feel like this everyday

and i just know people dont understand me

i feel like i need to feel secure to move forward and i just keep being hit with things that make me feel insecure all over again

i just keep feeling so judged i feel like everyone is talking about me behind my back

i just want to forget wtf happened yesterday and feel normal again

i feel so stupid and pathetic like always

im so tired of being the one begging

if hes different then why does it feel the exact same

he messaged like 2 seconds later lol

this is when i start panicking and thinking he'll never talk to me again

that person may have been bigger but they were a hell of a lot nicer!

like why are you roasting your past self for just being fat i hope you heal

people that lose a lot of weight either have the best perspectives or turn pure evil theres no in between

grossssss why do they think that will ever work

im really not ready for this ugh

thats 10000% a neg idk why ppl think thats a good strategy

like i feel like this is the standard reaction

am i really even sad or am i just aware of how shitty things are

that 👍 emoji is so triggering ew

hate how low my social skills are like i'm so abnormal and weird

hate waking up with that cursed feeling i hope today isnt hell

rsd so bad what else is new

when will i learn