hails 🍁

ao3 is down… i’m gonna do something crazy like actually watch 9-1-1 instead of just reading buddie fics

someone save me

i adore barrett wilbert weed and ryan mccartan, but something about the west end recording of heathers… i feel it in my soul

(also, when jamie muscato sang veronica’s name in freeze your brain, something Changed in me. i fear his obsessed freak shit would absolutely work on me)

as soon as i finish severance, i fear a full blown hadestown obsession is gonna happen

is one triggering the other?? hard to say… (markgemma are so orpheus and eurydice it hurts me. i’ve seen two edits using wait for me and both made me cry multiple times)

i literally restarted act 2 (i was in rivington) just so i could romance astarion

sorry i want to spread love and joy

my bbg is simply too silly. i must let them consume my life

this is the first sketch i’ve colored in like fifty years (and it’s mostly a really basic ref) but i’m proud that i made something that isn’t just a chicken scratch sketch on a sticky note lol

a rough drawing of a person standing with their arms out. they’re wearing a dress with a green bodice and red skirt and sleeves. they have fox ears and bee antennas. their hair is red with white ends (like a fox’s tail)

a quick little character design i did for a friend’s project

am i now incredibly attached to this oc… yes, yes i am

listened to mike crew’s episode of tma and can confirm he’s still the best ever

expanding my playlist for the vast for him bc i miss him fr

i’m trying to draw my wonderful friends together, but one of them was so fucking easy to draw and the other is taking years off my life

tell me how i crack out one face in five minutes flat and then take an hour on the other (and it still looks bad ahhhhh)

if i could conquer the intense intrusive thought about cannibalism that make me unable to eat, i just know i would become obsessed with hannibal

like, it’s so upsetting i can’t see will graham have a breakdown simply bc of intrusive thoughts

i will defend her until my dying breath because i get her fr

(i still adore ellie and joel, this is why i refuse to play tlou2, i like wanting to live)

the day i discovered abby anderson was the day i became a menace to society because i am IN LOVE with her

i actually need her so bad and i’m 0% ashamed about it

a person comments on a tiktok “it’s so weird to think this story and these people literally changed my life and now it’s all gone” and the creator replies “but isn’t that everything?”

just found the most profound comment on a DSMP tiktok in 2025

yes, the tiktok did make me cry and then the comment did as well

yes, a fanfiction made me fall in love with her, leave me alone. i’m a simple person and she’s pretty and a complex character, i didn’t stand a chance

i always felt like i might be lying to myself about my sexuality but then i found out about abby anderson of tlou2

would be awkward if i wasn’t bi considering i’m actually madly in love with her

anyway, completely unrelated: if you look like abby anderson… heyy

drawing a friend’s fursona as part of a christmas present has made me appreciate furries even more because how tf do you guys draw animal faces and ears and shit

i’m on the struggle bus driving through struggle city right now

good news everyone: the depressive episode that i’m currently in was probably not even started by the tlou fic

it did make it worse though. i’m 100% sure of that.

sleep didn’t help, i’m on the verge of tears at work

i guess props to the fic writer for giving me such an intense attachment to the characters, but also fuck them for doing that and then killing them off. even the happy epilogue didn’t help much

it was HURT/comfort

and we’re getting possible happiness and closure for ellie (but probably not a sequel that explores that, but i think that would come with more devastation, so i’m fine with it.)

i’ve also coincidentally been convinced i don’t think i’ll play tlou 2 or watch season 2 (it’s for my mental health)

i lied. it’s two in the morning and i have work tomorrow but they fixed it so i’ll only cry about all the bad shit sometimes

this fic has changed me into a worse person i think

god, fuck this

i’m going to sleep and maybe tomorrow i’ll have my will to live back and finish this fic without my heart being torn apart and burned to ashes again

and now the only truly happy chapter is setting up for fucking death again, i just know it

the fact that there isn’t a major character death warning feels like a bullshit lie and i don’t even care that the writing is good anymore, i’m too upset

people who write tlou fics actually fucking hate joy

every single character has been killed brutally and there are still five chapters left

WHAT MORE CAN YOU TAKE FROM ME?!??!!?

do you want more of my tears? a depressive episode? you’ll have it if you don’t somehow miraculously make this better

unfortunately seeing the wicked movie has made me addicted to the first four minutes of jonathan bailey’s version of dancing through life

i imagine this is what it would feel like if you took an ssri but it just gave you happy chemicals right away for four minutes straight

but there’s truly never been someone more iconic than king odysseus “next to my wife” of ithaca

i guess i forgive jorge

every single epic saga is just going ‘oh, it’s so funny how i’m actually sobbing more than last time. wow haha how silly that my heart is filled with melancholy’ and then opening instagram and seeing jay being silly as if he didn’t break my heart seventeen different times

spotify really said “here’s happy times music” and then played sad shit

oh you silly bitch spotify, this is cigarette daydreams, it is not a happy song

my spotify wrapped results. at the top, there’s a picture of hozier. on the left is a list of top artists 1. hozier 2. the oh hellos 3. ghost 4. jorge rivera-herrans and 5. noah floersch. on the right is a list of top songs 1. green flash sunset 2. nellie 3. birds don’t sing 4. moderation 5. thompson’s station. on the bottom is minutes listened: 54,872

hozier on top for the second year in a row!!! i only listened to him for like 2.5k minutes vs last year which was like 30k minutes lol

my minutes listened is like 9k less than last year but uhhhh, i was watching video essays instead of listening to music so it’s cool

and he’s punk, what incredible character development for my guy

omg york can read!! guys, this season is gonna be crazy, jacob can finally look at clues and understand them!

this alone should convince you to watch