errorbesque.bsky.social

i don’t want people to see the real over the fabricated… even i don’t want to see it

showing oneself vs hiding oneself, i guess. and a not-very-well-examined definition of who is deserving

thinking about intimacy-as-performance for friends vs strangers vs your partner. why am i so put off by some of these but not others?

saw someone recently say that the trans flag looks like a bandaid floating in a swimming pool and its all i can see now

a proposal for a new trans flag

you are a good dancer 🖤

ACDC is what i’d play if i hated my child. here, have a horrible shrieking man. I hate them too so it’d be torture for both of us

reacquainted with the quintessential LA experience of “it’s freezing inside because it’s hot outside”

i’m not really interested in a vanilla fling with a very young person (probably because i’m an idiot?)

at the gay bar in makati, a very young lesbian latched onto me for the night, but i just went home without sealing the deal at 4a

i’m admiring of my cousin for how competent and knowledgeable she is: there’s a high-charisma element to almost every interaction (not true in the bay imo, where social finesse is not regularly required).

i get “sir”ed almost without exception, even after people hear my voice. eat soooo much food.

manila day 2: grueling tour through manila chinatown with lots of historical stops.

manila day 1: walked to the gym while feeling oddly at home (ig training in 90 degree weather will do that), then a brief tour of megamall food courts with cousin m.

idk where to find the gays here if they’re not gonna be at the aerial gym aka masochism factory

i continue to assert that catholicism made me camp

canned rambutan (a fruit from Thailand)

whoa black betty

Elon Musk has passed away. A roving band of troglodytes cut out his still-beating heart with obsidian knives as he cried out hysterically for someone to save him. His brutish, ugly death was widely mocked on social media. He will be forgotten shortly.

*patternless

game over, time to start grinding for meaningless achievements

2 x patterless futomomo and a akechi denki tk i tied on my friend on a warm afternoon

mb the fash are right (not about what they state, but in the proposed trajectory, simply because humanity doesn’t deserve to survive (only annihilation))

i think what i should take from this is context matters more than most other signifiers

standard day of hybrid unclassifiability today

addressed in spanish walking down mission st, in canto at the bakery, asked if i am an undergrad at the gay music production workshop, he/him’ed in the weight room, she/her’ed in the pole studio

vinyl workshop by eris (last weekend)

like, let me give you a custom and efficient protocol for getting into suspensions along with physiological and engineering considerations

it feels weird being one of the most experienced people in a group like that. learning to give a slow drip of information rather than rapidly disgorging as much as i can is a skill i’m glad i’ve picked up over the years, but it can still feel dissatisfying.

(it still feels so gnarly when i get this, it feels untenable af and then suddenly it stacks into place)

went to a munch for asian folks yesterday and it was adorably awkward. my main win was discovering someone i see at events all the time also reverently regards ddr as cardio

#pdayesha with proper split grip