Seb

I've been surviving mainly off iced coffee, nicotine, and weed for the past 48 hours.

I don't really feel real right now, and I can't stop thinking about if the last time I kissed him will be the last time I ever do 💔

I think my almost 2 year situationship ended last night...I feel so fucking numb

In other news, I've gone down another size, which I'm very pumped about!

My eating habits are slipping again tho and I'm starting to eat a lot of junk again, but I've recognised it, so now I'm fixing it

I'm starting to care less about what people think of me, which I hope means I'm also gonna be less scared about posting anything online 🙏✨️

Drunk high and sleepy

Went out tonight to an emo night and it was so fucking good.

also hit like 13k steps ✨️💀

Binged for the first time in months today and I'm going to fucking crash out I really don't need this right now oh my god

Fucking hell...I've fallen very in love with the situationship 💀

He also gave me the "starving yourself isn't the way to lose weight" talk but I'm choosing to ignore that part and focus on when he said "your new confidence is very fucking sexy" 💅

Literally how do people make friends as adults??

I'm so fucking lonely and have no clue what to do about it

Moving to a new state is rough 🫠

I try so hard to be chill about my issues with food around other people so that they don't catch on, but the guy I'm in a situationship with just said, "Thank you for eating." After I told him I had just had dinner

I'm cooked...

My housemate keeps making sure I'm eating enough and has been buying a lot of snacks that they know I like but hasn't directly mentioned anything about my ed 💀💀💀

Almost started spiralling cause I thought I was starting to slip back into binge eating behaviour.

I woke up with my period, so false alarm 💅✨️

Done a longer liquid fast than I normally would and felt completely fine, so now I really feel like seeing how long I can push it

If I skipped dinner tonight, I could get to atleast 30hrs until I'd be expected to eat again...

Hmm

Refuse to let my bitch ass ruin this situationship so I'm making food with every intention of throwing it away just so I can take a photo to send to him cause he worries about me 😌

Need to just start doing this every day because what do you mean I burnt 4000cals?!??!

My mother just told me she's proud of me for maybe the first time in my life and it's because I lost weight...

Stepping into traffic is looking real good right now oh my god /hj

Stopped smoking weed for a week, and it made my appetite come back, so I guess I'm just gonna stay addicted

I can't weigh myself because I don't have scales but I feel like I've put a couple of kgs back on so I'm freaking out but I'm also on my period at the moment so like I could just be bloated right? 😭😭😭

I got a new size pair of shorts like 3 weeks ago, and they are already getting loose...like I'm happy I'm losing weight but I can't afford to keep buying new clothes all the time...once I'm out of plus sizes I'll be thrifting everything I buy but I'm not quite there yet

Praying that 2025 is the year I start to care less about my online presence because being paranoid and anxious about posting on a social media account that doesn't even have my real name on it is actually a little crazy 😭😭

Kinda keep forgetting I have this installed

Need to lock back in because my eating habits are starting to slip again. I'm thankfully not back to binging and hoping it stays that way.

I see my family in a week, and I'm already anxious about how much body shamming I'm going to have to put up with from my mother

I'm taking weed with me tho so I'll just get absolutely cooked before going to see her 💅✨️

I'm really fucking high and I've just been laying face down on my bed for like an hour listening to asmr

The weather is getting so hot, which means it's time to enter my only consuming iced coffee and weed phase again

I really need to become addicted to green tea again because last time I dropped like 2 clothing sizes and that was just with eating slightly less than was normal back then (a lot) but now I pretty much just omad and smoke weed so like maybe I can speed run some weight loss ✨️

It's so nice! I already feel way more comfortable posting on here than I ever did on edtwt

I think the guy I've been talking to for like a year is catching on to my ed and I literally don't know what to do to seem normal about food 😭😂

#edsky

My current safe food just gave me the ick....will be crying about it for the foreseeable future

Managed to avoid eating lunch while out with friends and then wasted 250cals on a drink 😭😭

My Mother(we hate that bitch) noticed that ive lost some weight and looked me dead in the eye and said

"Still got a ways to go though don't you?"

Like!? She's literally just afraid that I'm going to end up skinnier than her because she hates that she weighs over 100kg 🙄🙄

#edsky #edtwt

hunched over in my bathroom coughing up a lung

Worth it tho 🍃✨️