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Enjoy New York without me because the only way I could’ve afforded that was to not pay bills or rent for 5 months (obvi we chose housing over a trip bc like duh). Idk it just pisses me off.

Don’t joke about being poor around your poor friends. It makes me sick when irls say “I’m so poor” meanwhile they got to go in their high school trip bc their parents had 600 to spare in the span of two weeks while I had to stay home and watch all of my senior friends with money

Had a few fries and 4 nuggets today. Not even by choice either I’m so hungry but we’re poor and can’t afford food. The food we do have is stuff that will either make me sick or makes me sick thinking about (a microwave meal, baked beans, and other canned goods that are used for meals.)

I wasn’t just scolded I was beat for crying or being mad or upset. When ever I say what I’m feeling now the other person gets upset so I have to comfort them. People only bring up their issues when I’m showing my issues. So what’s the point in showing them.

“I had no idea you felt that way”
Yeah bc I hide it. And not in the I act super sad and deny it when you ask no I will be fine. I will look at you and talk with honey in my voice. Because I was punished for feeling.

Debating on cutting myself but if I do that my boyfriend will be upset probably so I’m scared

I’m tired but I can’t be upset for more than 30 minutes before it becomes about other people.

My whole hand is throbbing lmfao punching walls is so cringe, I’ll stick to my thigh and arms thanks

Not you Pook dw ✌🏽

I can hear you aggressively moving stuff around. My chest hurts. I’m back in her basement, with that familiar realization that I’m about to get hit.

Oh my God shut the fuck up

No it’s not.

No you don’t.

I’m going to throw up why am I so upset by this.

This makes no sense wtf

Fuck I can’t tell if this makes sense but I just started writing what it was so I hope it’s coherent if not I’ll read it in the morning I will remember hopefully what I was saying if I didn’t say it already

Can someone come get me

I feel sick. I cannot tell anyone these thoughts.

Vent asset bc of if I have to see shit then so does my Fursona

Just fucked myself until I felt gross to cope with cutting myself but now I just want to cut myself more

I wasn’t trying to lie

I wasn’t lying I swear

don't trust the thoughts you have after midnight,don't trust the thoughts you have after midnight, don't trust the thoughts you have after midnight, don't trust the thoughts you have after midnight, don't trust the thoughts you have after midnight, don't trust the thoughts you have after midnight

Everything hurts

I’m not here

I won’t. But I can’t promise I won’t. I can try

Get off of me

I believe in her.

I want to turn around but I’m already down the Road from my house

I guess that’s why you’re free and I’m not