maybe gray 🤍

and I got this cute lil organizer for my skincare & supplements - I had them stacked around the sink so I didn’t have to dig around for them but I felt bad bc my husband always had to clear them all away to clean the bathroom, now it’s easy for both of us 🥰🥰🥰

if you wanna show off something you got on sale I am a willing and enthusiastic audience 😍

sometimes when work at the family business is slow it turns into surprise family therapy

one thing that comes to mind is Ken Wilbur’s distinction in integral theory between the Good, the Beautiful & the True as just intersubjective, subjective, and objective versions of truth

can someone remind me what the deeper differences between aesthetics and ethics are again? do those exist?

my temperature is dropping low enough that I know I’m not pregnant (sad) but it’s dropping fast enough that I might get my period over with before my husband comes home (happy)

to someone in particular but also all beings

and I got a jingly scarf to wear around my waist too it’s the cutest!!!

I tried belly dancing for the first time and I’m really excited about it

building the mind-body connection to do all these spicy little isolations is going to be so fun 😍

my temperature is dropping low enough that I know I’m not pregnant (sad) but it’s dropping fast enough that I might get my period over with before my husband comes home (happy)

I’m very grateful that you guys are all hopeful that I will get to be a mama soon

it really means a lot to me 💖

I spent hours in the kitchen yesterday and it was so lovely and peaceful

meal prepped my breakfast and lunch for the week, cooked up two portions of dinner, baked a banana chocolate chunk loaf in my new loaf pan, deep cleaned everything when I was done

domestic bliss

I read you can reduce cortisol by eating breakfast w/in an hr of getting up and getting direct sunlight in the morning so now I have a routine where I eat yogurt and granola on my porch when I get up and I don’t know if the science is science-ing but either way it’s pretty lovely

I tried aerial yoga for the first time this morning and decompressing my spine was phenomenal but now my abs are dead lol so sore

it’s soooooooo cute but I think it just helps to keep things the same across diff platforms as much as possible

these are just initial thoughts but I think it will be fun to experiment 🥰

so I don’t really do my beauty-in-the-mundane professional/domestic bliss poasting there - altho in uni I did & I enjoyed it & it would suit the way my voice has been developing lately well

I like my personal insta to be v curated - I like everything I post there to flow together & meet a certain aesthetic standard & feel cohesive & communicate meaningful events as they arise in my life - it’s more of a highlight reel to preserve my own sense of having a beautiful adventure of a life

maybe something more slice of lifey would suit me better now - a lower pressure wider ranging kind of expression that I haven’t had before on my personal insta or as a boudoir model

I used to be an only fans girl so for a while I had a very thirst trappy visual presence as malty but since graduating law school & getting married I’ve moved away from sexualizing myself to such an extreme

so it will be interesting to consider if there is a visual presence this version of myself would find appealing now that it’s had to create an outlet for it

insta has always been a personal photo diary for me and I have shared it with IRL family & friends so it’s just been a very different space than my more verbal/less visual social media presence on twitter/mastodon/blsky

very happy that an aesthetically acceptable version of my handle was available for insta/threads, I really don’t know if I could have compromised any more than this and still been willing to have the account at all lol

yeah I think may.be.gray is growing on me!!!! can you teach me?

I don’t know what it is but I made it 😌🩶 https://www.threads.net/@may.be.gray

hmmm I’ll have to think about it

I just set myself up as may.be.gray on instagram/threads so it might be nice to match that here 🤔

oh wow you’re uncomfortable with the non-negotiable uncertainty surrounding the most important things in life? go figure

this is probably a silly thing to express but waiting to get pregnant for years would be a piece of cake if I just got to know for certain it would happen eventually

even with wilder and more extreme nightmares I have a lot of faith that something productive is happening even if in those cases it’s less obvious to me what my dream self is working through

I really appreciate my subconscious when I have nightmares, esp when they play out anxieties I actually have

I just have unshakeable confidence that those bad dreams do good work processing real emotions I might still have a bad habit of repressing/ignoring in my waking life