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good luck with everything!! i hope it all goes well, proud of you for taking this step!! 🫶🫶

this is all so interesting omg, i guess i’ll have to examine what im eating a bit closer so i can maybe figure out what foods i could eat that can help w stuff like this

i wish i could say T_T i feel like i look like an adult but ive had coworkers think i was as young as 16 before it came up in conversation which always shocked me bc i don’t think i look anywhere near that young ? one (jokingly) even said she didn’t believe i was really as old as i am 😭

Anorexia started slowly. It took time to work myself into the frenzy that the disease demands.

this is always a lil too close to home

maybe :[ im trying to remember everything i’ve had that made me feel that way, i guess a common food has been like, grains like bread and oats ? but i’ve never rlly had issues w gluten or anything like that so i don’t think it could be that. i’ve felt rlly out of order in general this week so idk ?

kinda starting to get to a point where my stomach hurts after eating, am i cooked? 😭😭

omg i was never moots w them but i had heard what happened and was so worried, im really relieved to hear that they’re okay

what is wrong with these people

every time i come close to posting a bc on here i chicken out bc what if im actually just tricking myself and im not skinny and i need to lose more before posting 🥀🥀

was doing bcs in my bathroom mirror and for a second it kind of dawned on me how unhealthy my body has started to look. maybe im just making a huge mistake with all of this, idk

thank you so much 🧡 :[ the worst part of it was just how utterly passive and like. defenseless(?) i felt in that situation T_T it was embarrassing as much as it was frightening

i hope he gets into a freak accident

like ugh one of my coworkers told him to stop being disrespectful (she also checked up on my after 🥲) and one just stood a little behind me until he was gone while i stood there silently just scanning his items (also his hands kept touching mine it made me feel so sick)

customer at work kept yelling at me for literally no reason & i actually nearly bawled my eyes out right there at my register for 25 minutes after he left, genuinely horrible work experience today

i’ve been doing so good :] i’ve only been eating when i’ve had to and ive skipped every meal i can, i haven’t snacked .. im kinda crushing it rn icl

i would love it if my stomach could lock in and flatten already

honestly a big fear of mine is my mom figuring out that i have an ed and shaming me for being like this at 23 😭😭

my weight went down 🥹🥹

that’s definitely fair :( i mean, im definitely a hypocrite when it comes to this stuff for sure, i just know you don’t deserve to be treated that harshly whether it’s by yourself or someone else. i hope you can get there one day too 🫂🫶 it takes time but i believe in u

preparing for a larger dinner tn by eating NOTHING else today 😼😼 heh.. don’t tell my partner

celebrating yourself and indulging even a little bit doesn’t make you the embodiment of greed, you’re allowed to let yourself eat and enjoy cake. im so sorry you’re going through such a hard time but you absolutely do not deserve any pain you have or anything worse than it

i love the empty feeling when im hungry but god do i hate the excruciating sensation that is hunger

i can’t find my hand lotion 🫩

joke or not i wish ppl wouldn’t say things like that T_T the phrase sausage fingers is just generally etched into my head bc of it and it’s always how i describe mine to myself 😭💔 im so sorry that someone said that to you though even if it wasn’t intended to cause harm :(

my skin is so dry these days

i will never be beautiful i hate my life u guys

what if i purged
(has never purged before)
.. what if i did it right now .

i’ve had a stomach ache ever since eating breakfast bc it was way more than i usually eat for my typical meals and i can just feel it sitting in my stomach and i hate the feeling so much i just want it gone

i simply just want beautiful elegant long and slender fingers is that too much to ask

idk what it is but one of my biggest insecurities is my fingers. i feel like my fingers are so fat and whenever i see someone with thinner / more slender fingers than me it just makes me feel even more that way . am i crazy

there’s something in the air messing with us.. but ur so right. food in my tummy is temporary, starving is forever