Bi Samurai

4 days of progress between these photos and already a noticeable difference

I just packed my entire room alone with a broken leg. My leg hurts so bad now 😭

I log all my thoughts to track how I grow in an effort to exponentially grow as a human but also spiritually. It’s working insanely well. This entry today was delightful. I often have 3-5 reflections like this a day and created a lattice of thoughts and realizations.

I ordered jsck in the box and asked for BBQ and Honey mustard. Tell me why I look in the bag and it’s 4 ranch 💀 I hate ranch bro

What’s funny is even historically Christians have always just terrorized other people. It’s about energetic alignment more than it is belief system. Energy controls so much and people subconsciously gravitate towards familiar energy.

That asshole ordered that a MILLION POUNDS of food be destroyed, rather than disturbed to people in need.

A MILLION POUNDS!

Do not EVER let his minions claim they are Christians.

So everyone loves Ms. Rachel (including me) but I can’t quite put my finger on why 😭

And I do want to let people know I really do sit here and type paragraphs and paragraphs of random character back stories and then go back and refine it because my brain is a bit ADHD. There’s some things about her that I didn’t put in this document but she’s everything.

I created a new character for my anime and I actually love her omfg

Brioche

My job owes me 178 hours and only paid me for 40…..I am trying so hard not to crash out rn

When I was a child it was picture day. The only options for props were flowers or sports balls. I didn’t like either. I chose the flowers between the two because I found sports to be boring. Everyone laughed the entire time I was in line. I did not give a single fuck.

This is null. A character from the anime I’m writing. This song is from the soundtrack I’m making for the anime. She feels deeply and so fluidly. She’s the calm in between the storm. The track reflects that. Never resolving but still structured.

I’m ok it’s just emotionally a lot to deal with at the moment. I cannot fathom how I’m alive. I keep doing the math and it actually doesn’t make sense.

The pain that I am in. Emotionally. Physically. It’s all too much. I almost died and it’s just hitting me. I am not supposed to be alive rn. I saw my body and I transcended and I asked them to put me back. There was a hesitation but they agreed and I woke up in the hospital.

This world is cruel. My heart loves deeply and is hesitant to let people in and the second I tried this happened….it hurts. How am I supposed to love again?

This guy said he wanted to be my bf. It would’ve been my first real relationship with a guy. He said he wasn’t leaving me and I was stuck with him. I got in a car accident and right before the accident he just…ghosted me. I was on my deathbed so I let him know I was dying and he said nothing :(

I’ve been teaching myself how to walk since I got in an accident last week. Every single minute of every single day is painful. Every micro movement hurts like a bitch. Yet still I make progress and move forward. I will walk again.

I remember one time this guy kept trying to convince me to get his wife pregnant. Like he kept asking even tho I was saying no and it was so weird. Like you want me to give you my dna to get your wife pregnant ???? 😭

What’s crazy is I actually know how to program so I can turn this into a fully functional game if I wanted

I’m studying AI because it’s obviously a huge part of the future and I want to understand the technology that I’m using. I downloaded ChatGPT I’ve only been using it for a day and I just discovered no one is really using it the way I am. I made a video game….

My car battery died and I had to spend the rest of my paycheck to fix it and now I will be starving myself until Friday

#reasonsforrevolution
#WeTriedPolite
#RevoltWithReason
#PeopleOverProfits
#nokings

Someone tried to tell me that Trump isn’t the issue the issue is the ideology. That may be true but that doesn’t make me blame him any less. To be that ignorant of an ideology and be responsible for so much pain there’s nothing that can absolve you of that.

I forgot to take my meds again and I’m slipping back into psychosis which makes my OCD ten times worse. I take my medicine at a certain time every day and taking it at a different time will freak me out so I’m waiting to take it in the morning but I don’t feel so good right now
:(

I’m gaining more control in the astral realm and once I gain full control I’m thinking of going into my stalkers dreams and attracting some scary ass spirits

Even when you’re lost you’re still actively controlling your own future without realizing it. Not having the ability to imagine your own future doesn’t mean you don’t have one. The only possible way you won’t have a future is if you keep imagining that you don’t have one.

I think we die and reincarnate again and we kind of respawn in our new bodies while we’re dying in the old one. That’s why we gain consciousness at random ages. We’re literally spawning into a new life because we died in the old one. This is a trap. One that I kind of like being inside of.

Something is very wrong. This reality is fake and everyone is so close to understanding but like any time most people have a breakthrough I see them glaze over and go right back to the simulation. I think this is all fake and we wake up when we die.

I really be clocking every Sagittarius I meet cause I dated three in a row and every single one of them liked to play games and never wanted me to know how they felt (even tho I always did) 😭 why are yall like that