hanguang jace ☁️❄️

I had every intention of finishing something for WWX day, but my conscience (and common sense) start screaming at me if I open csp. 💀 One day I’ll be able to do the things I want and intend to do, maybe

Love being behind on everything for reasons completely outside my control, losing even more time on top of that to symptoms, leaving me in the negative for accomplishing anything useful but putting me on a solid fuck-up streak. 👍🏻 not the biggest fan of my life at the moment.

So if you can’t afford it, you will—without exaggeration—die quickly. It will not be pleasant.

It’s been said before, but bears repeating: for T1DM, insulin is not just “helpful,” an option, or the outcome of poor diet. It is a hormone needed to allow almost every cell in your body to function. You no longer make any. Without it, death is inevitable w/in a matter of days.

Sometimes I think about how expensive it is to keep myself alive because my immune system decided to start eating my pancreas’s beta islet cells for fun and never stop. Then I quickly backpedal before I become the bitterest person alive

A week later, I’m still thinking about the guy who turned up to an exam with a “I ❤️ MY GIRLFRIEND’S FEET” shirt, presumably to establish dominance

Happy lotus farmer Wei Wuxian, robes hiked up to his thighs, examines his lotus seed crop.

#CQL #TheUntamed #BurialMounds
#WeiWuxian / #WeiYing

My medical supplies came in. The awful week is over 🙏

This is the ideal situation 🙏

I am simply asking for more than a couple hours in the morning where I’m pain-free and doing things is easy and I can actually stay on top of all of the things I need to get done before I feel like I got shot in the eye. I’m exhausted and at this point, this is just absurd

Saw someone talking about something good in their life and discovered I am miserable enough that it made me angry, so I’m hoping maybe hydrocodone and 40 hours of sleep will fix me

me, an idiot: why do I feel so tired and out of it lately? I don't get what changed. 🤔🤔🤔

Then my brain finally synapsed and screeched to a halt when I remembered I'd tried increasing my verapamil again.

I am dying to have someone cut me open and dissect me like a frog on a table. I need to know why my corporeal form is such a fucked up snowflake

"I don't really understand it" - my endocrinologist after my unreadably high testosterone levels that only just beat down my endogenous estrogen and might, maybe, finally start causing a change (I got a few more chin hairs)

Neither 20 mg of propranolol nor 0.5 mg of Ativan are enough for all these presentations I have to make. Maybe ketamine will fix me

It only took 2x the amount of testosterone and >1500 ng/dL of it in my blood to get my estradiol in range. I don't think I can ever take a hot shower again

I feel like I *should* be more terrified of it, but it really kind of loses its edge after so many years of dealing with it, lmao. Mostly I just get annoyed at the time lost to treating it/recovery.

One of my favorite parts of t1dm is being thrown into 24 hours of chaos because a nutrition label included dietary fiber in the carb count, leading to multiple hypoglycemic events that would land anyone else in the hospital but for you it’s just another Wednesday

There’s significant improvement, but there are still days I spend in significant amounts of pain that I can’t quite outrun with distractions. It’s still daily, it’s just not turbomaxing every waking hour. Unfortunately that still maths out to Exhausting

They were also genuinely awful, "not like other girls," bordering on histrionic, incapable of understanding or caring about other people, and used this moral superiority as proof they were better than everyone. Anyways, I'm always reminded of them when I see The Discourse

I once knew a “certain ships/kinks get me Big Mad” type irl. Most obnoxious human I ever met. Sex tears=rape. Writing about SA meant you liked it. Got SO upset I liked Storm of Swords they created a bizarrely specific list of OCs I needed to kill off if I wanted to “be like that”

There was a brief moment in history when all we knew was picking fruit on Animal Crossing and enjoying fic without the looming specter of capitalism and the world was Good

my wrath of khan spirk art 👍 #art #startrek

I remember giving him a look like “I did not just hear this right now”

I spent a week sleeping off viral pharyngitis only to have the psychic damage of catching up on things I missed to make me feel like I need to sleep another week

Thank you 😭

Being in my early 30s after growing up thinking 35 came with looking like George Costanza has been one of the more surreal experiences in my life so far. A gen z coworker older than my brother asked if my nearsightedness was “middle aged sight”

Between this and having to do advanced math without the chance to learn the material beforehand, I now need twelve drinks

Kenya transgender rights victory hailed as African first QNews LGBTIQA+ News

it's so nice to see what a functioning judiciary looks like

"A transgender woman in the East African nation of Kenya has won a landmark court victory in which the judge not only found in her favour, but ordered the government to pass a Transgender Protection Rights Act."

fuck yeah

Update update: was not ghosted. We lived. Regardless, I am not graded on my partner’s performance, so all is well. I am exhausted from the stress letdown. I need a drink