Indigo Lockley

My one wish is that people could stop messaging me only stickers and vague bullshit. I really hate passive non-verbal bullshit cause it makes my brain spiral to figure out what they want and I just get angry.

I find it hard to find someone that cares about me sometimes but when I look at the news and the world we live in it makes sense.

This idea of "I deserve to be respected" lingers on my mind but that doesn't apply to me. I can be ignored, I'm often ignored, and deep down that's just natural to some that they don't even see the hypocrisy.

I don't know what to do but just keep moving on.

I'm so ready to die sometimes. Not in an edgy way but like I have been so close so many times part of my brain says "life goes on you're just a random negro" but also I wanna achieve something in my time I want to help others I just suck at...life? But I'm not white so I can't unfortunately.

Sorry to worry anyone I haven't had my painkillers in two days because the pharmacy is out and after being 5 months pain free it's coming back and I'm feeling incredibly irritable again but the realization I can never not take these pills and opioids hits me hard.

Photo of two baguettes sitting on a red gingham cloth. The Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 logo is in the top left corner.

Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 is one of the greatest games I've played. I wanted to show my love for the game and did so in the only way I knew I could, by learning how to make baguettes!

Recipe can be found here:
pixelatedprovisions.com/2025/10/08/c...

#Expedition33 @sandfallgames.bsky.social

FUCK Sickle Cell Disease dude. I hate relying on painkillers my whole life from now on just to feel normal.

The biggest downside to having two powerful long acting painkillers going all day is the afternoon crash I suffer.

My strongest drugs "activation" time I can almost clock in 4 hours after taking it.

Help me please

I legit have not had any issues with Borderlands 4. I think there is a level of people just want to complain and gang mentality on the internet is rampant.

Cyberpunk 2077 was a buggy mess and I was upset but not shitting on the developer nonstop for it.

Thank you @borderlands.2k.com for adding this.

As someone recently diagnosed it's made shooters much more tolerable.

Getting to go out with the hubby, see friends, go home and have the most fresh and crispy Mcdonalds fries ever and some burgers on the way home was really nice.

Clarification, since a comment made me realize my wording could be misconstrued: When I say "a payout and an apology," I mean ABC/Disney should apologize and give a huge check to Jimmy Kimmel for their rush to bend the knee, not Kimmel apologizing to anyone.

He owes nobody anything.

MGH Honey Badgers

Today I'm attending my first walk/run for Sickle Cell in Franklin Park. If you wanna share or donate it'd be appreciated. This is my team.

sicklecellhope.myevent.com/participants...

I realized spending 30 years in constant pain makes me very sensitive to other people's silent suffering and it can be all consuming to function with other peoples energy wearing you down.

It's a lot to handle and not what you think it is.

Because you get dragged down by proximity and the feeling is the worst. I played it off as New Age bullshit people who lean on zodiacs use to sound interesting but actual Empath shit is exhausting when you can't turn it off.

Stop letting people convince you being an Empath is some great cool thing it's not. It really really really really sucks and hard to control.

I've always hated this feeling I get and it literally drove me crazy at one point. It's not fun when people are at their lowest.

I grew up having to accept never really understanding why is "The black person always dies first" a universal trope in media? And now just a funny ha ha we've become so accustomed to?

Oh the shooter was a white republican who loved guns(shocker). Great so now everyone on the left can respectfully ask the conservative party to fuck off and deal with their own.

But of course they will somehow blame everyone else.

1/2

In case you were wondering why the incorrect rumor of “trans activist” and “fascist symbols” on ammo started, it’s because arrows and initials are common ways manufacturers stamp ammo.

Including “TRN” the ironsight and a direction broad arrow:

Let's not forget the two democratic lawmakers who were shot and killed a month ago. Escalation has already happened and the right makes it very clear they want to kill everyone else.

Bitches out here making million dollar movies and documentaries about white guys who are renown serial killers.

Don't see any Michael Brown or George Floyd movies or specials? We only matter to the media when we are suffering.

What happens when all the criminals in America are gone and Trump finally defeats us but there's still mass shootings and killing? Who's the next target demographic to villainize?

"Political violence only brings out more political violence"

Well as long as the gun loving right wing sycophants are empowering their own to kill each other I'm sure we've gone way past escalation. January 6 did happen and the one who are out there Trump released from prison.

Happy Birthday @rabbarab.bsky.social! Hope it's a SMASHER!!

Yall force POC to watch their own get kidnapped, shot up, assaulted and it's all over the news. One evil white dude who supports senseless killing and political violence got his wish. Mission Accomplished he died happy I'm sure.

It's refreshing that people have to be respectable about gun violence but forced to admit showing Charlie Kirk sympathy goes against his own beliefs and wishes.

The shallow dance yall weave amuses me. No thanks let that man rot. Evil begets evil and all that.

if you're seeing this you've earned it

Lol Charlie Kirk got shot. Please die.

Especially given there are always so few POC in those kind of friend groups. But the level of awkwardness and lack of self awareness does start to get uncomfortable. I suck at disengaging when it gets to a comical level of mockery of poc culture. The pain didn't help either cause I don't move.

I have noticed that recently my mental health has been better not being around overly privileged white queer folk spouting AAVE they learned from another white guy.

It was amusing for the longest but unfortunately tone deaf.