Clay Merritt

deeply disturbed by something that has happened in my life over the last few days. worst thing is, there's nothing i can do about it. left feeling helpless. it's selfish to even think about ME because I wasn't directly affected. But it's still brought much consternation and taken up space in my head

Eddington was a good movie

NUTS

The Black Eyed Peas were going fucking nuts in the 2000s

my existence is a self inflicted failure. i wish i did better. now it's way too late.

i spent the past week on vacation after spending the week before that on a spontaneous 3 day trip. I was sick this past week. i spent the entire week feeling like I was totally worthless and nobody likes me. then i left and i was back to normal. bad vibes bro

i am utterly exhausted

Common People by Pulp. What a song, eh?

5 years ago, I wrote a horror movie about drug addiction in the celebrity realm and it was really artistic and avant garde. I was proud of it at the time (in the middle of a pandemic) but even more so now

you can figure out what that playlist is for. but enjoy.

I Heard You Paint Houses? Playlist · Clay Merritt · 23 items

open.spotify.com/playlist/6HX...

San Francisco Chronicle 19h • AB Hernandez, the 16-year-old transgender athlete out of Jurupa Valley High School in Riverside County, shared a podium in long jump, high jump and triple jump in the CIF state track and field finals Saturday, an image of unity between teenage girls. "Sharing the podium was nothing but an honor," River City High School senior Brooke White told the Chronicle. "Although the publicity she's been receiving has been pretty negative, I believe she deserves publicity because she's a superstar, she's a rockstar, she's representing who she is." Read more → https://www.sfchronicle.com/sports/article/ trans-athlete-embraced-california-track- field-20352080.php

the kids who are actually playing against trans athletes who aren't auditioning for a gig as a right wing grifter are way more mature than the adults crying about it

good movie tho. i really enjoyed it.

i'll never forget this movie I watched 3 years ago about a Korean woman who was adopted by a French family who goes back to Korea in adulthood to find and connect with her biological parents.

and then halfway through there's a plot twist and she's suddenly an arms dealer.

we're all good, friends.

not we're all good friends

although if you'd like to be good friends, that'd be neat

it was just a blip. really bad week. we're all good friends

I really feel fed up with everything this week. Don't know if it's a blip or something more long term. Will report back.

Life is a hoot! Sometimes good, sometimes maybe shit

but for now? Fuck it we ball

My life is very empty and yet despite that, I feel content with life which is a wild spot to be in. I'm not content because I'm very empty and I know if this shield chips or shatters, I'm going to be in a lot of trouble.

Update: The Robbie Williams monkey movie was superb.

The point is - life is a very weird thing

I also didn't sign the NDA (he bailed on hiring me before I even got a chance to sign and even had his friend DM me saying they weren't interested anymore when I was only dealing w/ him directly)

I started last year in a dark place, getting an expensive surgery, and getting offered to write a screenplay for a semi-famous UK rapper who wanted to make a Peaky Blinders short film based around his songs.

I start this year in a great place and see the rapper is trying to rug pull w/ a shit coin

BABY RIDE ME TO TIL THE DARKNESS OF THE NIGHT

notclaymerritt - Twitch SPORTS CAR SATURDAY - iRacing

I'm live now, racing on Twitch, lets see if we can obtain positive results! twitch.tv/notclaymerritt

Twitch Twitch is the world

I haven't shared this on here so I will now:

I'm streaming on Twitch semi-regularly now. Mainly just racing streams but I hope to do more variety in the future. I'm doing two streams this weekend.

If you feel so inclined, check me out over on twitch.tv/notclaymerritt

This is a safe space so I don't wanna hear any shit

I Heard You Paint Houses? Playlist · Clay Merritt · 18 items

I got booted off the collab sex playlist I made with someone I was seeing a couple of years back. I figured it would eventually happen so I took the songs and made my own so I wouldn't lose it. It was just too good. open.spotify.com/playlist/6HX...

Today, I turn 29. I have a renewed lust for life which didn't exist a year ago. And I know that also sounds strange considering literally everything else that's happening in the world at the moment. Onwards and upwards.

I tried to do my first ever endurance races these last two weekends (one 2.5 hours, the other 24 hours) and they've both gone remarkably poorly and I'm extremely bummed out. I put so much effort into making it work and organizing and strategizing only for the 24h race to be done after 4 hours.