zephyr <3

2/8/2025 - 133.4
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thought i was going to gain after a binge but i maintained so massive w

god i want ice cream so bad but i dont think i have it in me today

2/7/2025 - 133.4
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nevermind we are SO back

2/5/2025 - 134.6
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blegh

2/5/2025 - 134.2
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bloat has not gone away fml, i dont even know what im doing to cause it because i was never this bloated before and im not eating much different overall

2/4/2025 - 134.4
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still feel a little bloated BUT THAT IS A DROP we love to see it

2/3/2025 - n/a
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not weighing myself because im going full in on the constipation express and have chugged so much hot coffee already it is absurd, but i am trying to keep track of every day !!

new safe food unlocked ?? you can eat an absurd amount of cheerios it feels like for low low calories

2/2/2025 - 135.8lbs
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bit the bullet and bought lax because im on like day 4 no shit theres no way its real weight, i know it takes 13 hours for it to kick in for me so im gonna take it tonight so im not having the shit-pocalypse in the middle of the night

2/1/2025 - 135.0lbs
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ugh i know i weigh less but i havent pooped in ages so its understandable, might actually have to buy lax for lax reasons tho

weigh ins !

february pinned !

literally waited half a month to weigh myself just to be constipated on my first weigh in ! fml

need to go grocery shopping but :/

YEAH RIGHT i think its like straight up the fact its 4 digits for me because 999 is fine ??? but 1000 oh no thats a crime

im trying to have 1k calories like im trying so hard but i dont like eating in the first place and then i get to 800 and suddenly the thought of having more panics me and i dont ??? like girl get a GRIP ?? theres no point in being skinny if im not around to enjoy it !!

also the worst part about this whole thing is to an extent i have been genuinely trying to be somewhat healthier and better with my food (and i say this knowing to a regular person the numbers would sound insane and unhealthy) but i just cant lol

yes because i understand like its a mental thing im valid there is no one that isn't valid but also i am a grown ass adult why did i panic over the grocery store not having the lower cal bread i usually get ??? that is not adult behaviour

or the evil ugw which is 108 but i think that would be a bit too hard to maintain without my doctors getting on my ass again

really once i hit a good weight again im going to go into semi and maintain, the true question is what that would be, conflicted between a good bmi number (17) or a good scale number (116-119lbs)

true mental illness is knowing the exact weight of most of my clothes (this outfit would be around 3lbs) and i drank 24ish oz of coffee meaning i probably weigh closer to 133 which is lower than i thought once again

good morning even though im not doing a Good weigh-in until feb 1st, i did an evil one today out of curiosity (fully clothed in relatively heavy clothes + i had already drank my coffee) and i was 137.4 which was significantly better than i anticipated tbh

every day i am like "i have to get thin i cant be the weight anymore, it's torturous" and then i eat .

its not that bad when i put blueberries in it (lying through my teeth)

once again, i will proceed to try to convince myself i like plain greek yougrt, and once again i will wish i cook the extra like 40 cals for flavoured (but never will i stop getting the plain)

what i do to not have the artificial protein shakes is make my own ! usually i have more of a smoothie than a shake, but like once you have a flavour/brand of powder you like its soooo convenient to just put it in a blender with whatever fruit and stuff you want

junkorexia is such a funny thing heaven forbid i have a sandwhich but an equal calorie amount of cookies ? its just a little treat

bitches will be like omg i feel like shit and idk why and their diet is cookie dough, popsicles, and boba

its me im bitches

got boba 2day for lunch, happy

i need to go grocery shopping but its COLD anyways what should i get ?