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20! They/She edsky DNI: minors and non edsky bmi 20 :( pro recovery!!!! backup: @sleepyessie.bsky.social

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ate more than i wanted to and immediately got violently nauseous so maybe iโ€™ll learn from this that i should not eat

13.10.2025 21:50 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 3    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

i think long hair is just idolized lol. i personally look better with hair around shoulder length but other people compliment my hair more when itโ€™s long. people think itโ€™s an accomplishment to grow out long hair.

12.10.2025 08:41 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

i even did my laundry when i cleaned my room!!! And I reconnected with an old friend!!! life is good!!! aside from the fact that itโ€™s 4:30am and I have to wake up around 11, but thats a problem for later

12.10.2025 08:38 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

i am on a ROLL guys!! i cleaned my depression pit of a room, Iโ€™ve been super good at my job, I worked out for almost an hour yesterday, Iโ€™ve been keeping up with my journal, and I havenโ€™t really been hungry!! i havenโ€™t been getting much sleep, but I havenโ€™t been tired either soooo its fine.

12.10.2025 08:38 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

itโ€™s just SO boring

12.10.2025 02:22 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

you just became my favorite person fr

11.10.2025 20:44 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

constantly stuck between wanting to rapidly lose weight and wanting to build muscle. i want to be thin but toned and strong !!!

11.10.2025 19:46 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 2    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

omg iโ€™ve never seen sugar free hot chocolate??? need to locate some ASAP. i fucking love hot chocolate :D

11.10.2025 19:37 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

if i lose 1.5lbs every week i will hit my gw by new yearsโ€ฆ thatโ€™s totally doable. i got this. i got this i got this i got this i can do it

11.10.2025 19:28 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 3    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

thats so real. thigh fat is so stubborn for what reason???

11.10.2025 19:16 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 2    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

yeah i know what you mean. i think most of mine comes off my arms. which i enjoy but also i could do with having some of it come off my stomach or boobs next. Iโ€™d quite like to come down a bra size lol

11.10.2025 19:11 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

oh never apologize for rambling. i am the QUEEN of rambling. youโ€™re in good company

11.10.2025 19:10 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

bc the fat youโ€™re burning is distributed across your entire body. itโ€™s not taking from one spot, which is why you have to lose like 10lbs for one inch off your waist or something like that. Itโ€™s SO discouraging. i go back and look at photos of me from my hw when i feel like iโ€™m not getting smaller.

11.10.2025 19:02 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

exercise suckssss. how do people so this everyday??? i chugged an energy drink, drank some water, iโ€™ve got my youtube video playing and this is still terrible

11.10.2025 19:00 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 2    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Yes!!!

10.10.2025 17:52 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

i know exactly what you mean! I donโ€™t have any noticeable scarring and that makes me feel like itโ€™s not โ€œrealโ€ sh bc no one else can see it? but also i donโ€™t WANT ppl to see it so??? very conflicting emotions.

10.10.2025 17:47 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

personally i wouldnโ€™t call destroying someoneโ€™s mobility aid a funny joke between friends if it was literally anyone else but i see your point lol.

27.09.2025 23:09 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

idk i think Wilson enjoyed it sometimes bc it gave him โ€œpermissionโ€ to not be polite and respectful. like the time he sawed through houseโ€™s cane

27.09.2025 23:01 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

im so disappointed in myself. i could weigh so much less rn

27.09.2025 16:18 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 6    ๐Ÿ” 2    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

no but theyโ€™re perfect for each other bc Wilson isnโ€™t exactly the best example of a โ€œgood friendโ€ either. His friendship with House works bc he has a high tolerance for bullshit, but he gives as good as he gets.

27.09.2025 22:49 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

restricting during depressive episodes is either really hard or really easy with no in between. bc yes iโ€™m too tired to go make or buy food but i also donโ€™t care about literally anything right now enough to commit to it. including weight loss. nothing feels important when iโ€™m like this.

27.09.2025 15:17 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 3    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

oatmilk has a much more subtle flavor, so its easier to cover up with syrups/creamer. if you donโ€™t like oatmeal tho you probably wont like it. I think cashew milk is the closest to regular milk flavor, but it is still vaguely nutty so probably not your thing.

19.09.2025 02:44 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

almond milk is soooo good w/ chocolate or hazelnut coffee creamer. Oatmilk is better for other flavors of coffee. (i donโ€™t like cows milk tho so obv personal preference)

19.09.2025 02:35 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

itโ€™s like when all of my other issues get bad my ED gets put on the back burner until I have the time for it. like oh no sorry cant starve myself rn iโ€™m too busy cutting myself

18.09.2025 18:20 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

and it makes it soooo hard to restrict bc iโ€™m like โ€œim having a bad day i deserve a sweet treatโ€ except iโ€™ve had like 10 bad days in a row

18.09.2025 18:15 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 3    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

why does my seasonal depression start in SEPTEMBER? ITS NOT EVEN COLD YET. THE SUN IS STILL SETTING AT 7:30!!! itโ€™s like my brain sees all the halloween decor and is like โ€œoh right!! time to be horribly depressed!!โ€ like brooooo. have i pavloved myself into being sad the moment fall approaches???

18.09.2025 18:14 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 1

this was so dramatic i just needed to smoke weed and go to bed iโ€™m fine now LMAO

12.09.2025 16:38 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 2    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

im just so fucking tired all the goddamn time and i want it to be over

12.09.2025 05:07 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

โญ๏ธving is exhausting, eating is exhausting, work is exhausting, laying in bed is exhausting, leaving my house is exhausting, cleaning is exhausting, everything iโ€™ve ever enjoyed doing is exhausting. i wish i could just sleep forever but i have โ€œresponsibilitiesโ€ and โ€œobligationsโ€

12.09.2025 05:06 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 1

when i say Minors DNI i also mean 18 year olds who are still in highschool but thatโ€™s too long to fit in my bio.

10.09.2025 02:41 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

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