harbingerofbeth

Holy fuck I've been specially selected to apply to a scholarship to study abroad.

In a weird turn of events I'm considering moving out of the country in several years. I mention this possibility to my guy, that Italy is one place I'm considering, and he's like I'll learn Italian with you 😍 like I didn't even ask.

Setting an intention for an Italy trip by our tenth anniversary!

Welp I realized i have a quiz today I haven't prepared for at all. Let the cramming commence.

Sometimes the 20 somethings in the shop are what you expect. Rowdy party seekers. Today a cowboy came in; we visited. He's very thoughtful, he told me I'm a good person and he loves it when I'm here. I cried after he left. What a powerfully kind thing to tell someone. I needed to hear it today.

So as y'all may have guessed I'm not the best with finances. First steps, I bought check book register and monthly budget binders. I do better with organization. I already feel more in control of my spending and aware of its impact. Next, I need to visit some banks for planning and advice.

I have two assignments due tonight and I'm so anxious that every time I try to prepare for them the words just jumble in front of my face 🙃

Sorry I've been so quiet with no strims. Head down while I grind on this schoolwork. Determined to get caught up!

Somehow I've been taking notes on the same archaeology chapter for three days. Goddess save me! I love archaeology but this is stressing me out lol.

I may have ordered a metric fuckton of makeup after getting advice from my makeup artist friend. No ragrets.

Whew I am manic as fuck today. Bad day to be without meds lol.

A photo of a black and white terrier with a purple collar on a blue and white striped towel

My lil doggo hopes you feel better.

Go hang with Jane! She's so sweet and kind.

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Lol, I study around the clock :P

I think I'm caught up with classes until tomorrow. Tomorrow I need to work on Archaeology. Then Intro to Mass Media.

After only studying the chapter and not the lectures I made a 13/15 with there being specific questions about the lectures 🙃 not bad I guess, at least I am grasping the material. I am working on watching the lectures tonight so I can start this week fresh. Ish. (Sitting at a 90% in this class now.)

I have a quiz tonight I'm not adequately prepared for 😅

Ok I'm all caught up on studying Media Writing until Monday. Phew. Now for the rest of my classes 😅

Ok Skullgirls is my new favorite fighting game. STYLE.

I've been quiet, recovering from yesterday and celebrating my birthday! Hope you feel better!

Starting my Dragon Ball journey with my guy!

A picture of Beth smiling in a black and pink rose slip dress

Live now on twitch! Sorry for the delay!

Im having a panic attack 🙃 hopefully stream will convene in the next hour. I promise to deliver a 12 hour strim tho!

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Beth's Birthday/Badgers Mutual Aid Fundraiser February 5th 10 am mst 12 hours Please help me lift up Badger and their family. They lost their son last year and are trying to recover this year and grieve properly. We will be doing makeup in Mo's honor, playing Cult of the Lamb, possibly other horror games, and maybe some group games in the evening. Incentives $5 - Compliment $10 - Postcard $25 - Spicy Beanboozled $50 - Custom Entrance $100 - Pick my Game for a Stream GOALS $100 - Discord Valentine’s Movie $200 - Date Everything $300 - Deer Onesie $400 - Sonic Stream w/no Saved Game $500 - Discord Karaoke Www.ko-fi.com/pikachupirate

TODAY, friends! I hope you are ready to open your hearts to a family very close to my own. If you can't donate, please share! If you have a different mutual aid you want to donate to in Mo's honor, that's ok too. Just support your community today!

On track to be on time for my 9am 12 hour mutual aid stream today. Dropping the poster and details later this morning. My friend Badger is very deserving and has been through a difficult time with losing their son last year. I would love to see the community come together for them.

Ok I read two chapters of the supplemental grammar book and I'm watching one of the lectures. I emailed the professor and asked for an extension on an assignment. I'm going to be ok.

I'm so stressed out. I just took my nighttime blood pressure medicine because I can feel my BP rising. All I have to do is study but im struggling because I'm so anxious. Im grateful tomorrow I'll be streaming and hanging out with my friends.

Thank you 🖤

I've been feeling empty and numb and melancholy, my brain wants to say it's depression but my gut says it's autistic burnout. I don't know how to explain it, but somewhere this weekend I crossed a line and frazzled the fuck out of myself. I gotta figure out how to pull myself out of this.