sun

am i exhausted, overwhelmed by people, hungry or is this desire to kms genuine? stay tuned to figure out

bad brain day 👍

"yes i will figure out seoul metro system on my first day in the country, what cud be the problem?" <- FOOL

wanna sign up for a training but they suggested me two times for a interview that both dont fit and i dont wanna ask for another option. what if i just ghost them and just ignore the training

some pages from my digital sketchbook!
#illustration #digitalart

it's just periods right😭 im just close to periods and experience the usual autistic trait of going insane during periods 😭😭😭 need to ge through this

i feel like one wrong word to me rn and ill explode and hit someone.. why was i accidentally rude to a friend in school rn ... what if i kms ?..

how do i stop having ocd if i vocalized how nice i think my life is one day and had the worst days right after ... u telling me my thoughts and words are not material but i made everything suck ?

tbh it's so fucking tiring to always be anxious over whether someone hates me or not do they really wanna be friends etc etc that it's just so much easier to withdraw and not even try anymore . ik a way healthier respond wud be to speak to them + be more confident but i just cant

not today 😔

why everyone is fucking ignoring me 😭 what the fuck is wrong with literally everyone

i was typing a post going like "i just need to survive the week" and my bluesky app lagged and closed,,,, i guess ill die today?

well have you considered that im autistic and suicidal and rightwingers deaths are my hyperfixation :/

how dare you laugh at someone's death?

everything fucking sucks this week can some other big rightwing figure die already so we all have sth to laugh at

ive half convinced myself that the girl i fell for is a genuine fae . my evidence being:
1. everyone in the office was obsessed w her for a while
2. she dresses as a fae and has a fae name
3. it's the first time i fell in love so it's not normal

autumn sunsets 🍂
#bagginshield #thehobbit

it wud be so much easier if i had to say goodbye once and be done w it. her messaging me and then disappearing without any notice makes me wanna die

shud be allowed to take a half an hour break from work cus anxiety

like a CLOCK. ngl when i started noticing that im only this depressed when and because of periods it became so much easier to cope

feeling like a big stinky pile of shit + hate everyone + want to die + dont wanna talk + the future is bleak um no it's unconnected to my periods that started today what ?

oh brother this guy stinks

im not gonna lie and pretend the only reason i work is to go on vacations ....

the moment i returned from vacation my boss is immediately asking me whether im planning to go on another vacation this year 😭 this was supposed to be a secret until three weeks later so that he wud forget i just was on vacation but alas ... i had to tell him..

i feel like nobody cares about how /i/ feel and i cant share how i feel cus what if i inconvenience everyone by it and is it not easier to just pretend all is good and maybe even apologize for being sad

gonna heal my people pleasing by becoming evil. no apologies in advance

my mom knew i was queer* for almost 10 years but it's the first time she ever saw me in love w a girl so i had to see the hope leave her eyes for good :3

pretending idgaf about the exam results so they come faster (ive been updating the page every 10 minutes)

feeling like such a koreaboo when in turkey my brain got too confused by turkish everywhere and the cashier's bad english so i just hit her with 아니요 😭😭🙏

so about that...