the freak console (0/100)

that episode of breaking bad with that huge tech party makes me feel rage. it's like glass onion meets vivarium. I know he feels weak and helpless because of the cancer and the mid life crisis. but... I can't imagine the pride you need to ruin everything for everyone this much. it's terrifying. 🖐️

hiiiii I woke up and I'm normal now! 🥞 today might be a lazy inside day? but we might wait until another day to do it. either way I think we're making muffins!

a door is a kind of doll that helps you with rooms

I shouldn't have had those sausages my stomach hurts like Satan I need to throw up so bad I'm so sorry

my roommate asked us to stop putting away the dishes since it's too noisy, and I only saw the text as soon as we finished. at least we didn't start cleaning the dirty ones yet. I asked her for permission but she hasn't responded. I wish I wasn't such a night owl with chores. I hate being noisy. 🖐️

dollyuri...............

💿tried sharing my passion for media analysis with veevee and she shoved my face in her pits just cuz it so happened to coincidentally be poop clues

now we're on the bus back home. it's peaceful, and she's keeping me so warm. I'm not anxious at all. it's just... nice, being held like this.

I'm going to stop dwelling on this before I cry again. I'm going to do so much with her. this is such a gift I never dared to wish for. 🖐️

we landed on a game called stuffed fables. patches had a really wonderful time, it got the winning shot on the last monster. quiet had a lot of fun learning a new ruleset too.

veevee had a cheese melt platter and garlic fingers, I had a snack bowl and that cookie milkshake. it was all delicious.

then we stopped at the library. both of the cafés were closed, so it wasn't for very long. I got a really cute picture of her, though. she's really pretty.

then I realized the board game café was right nearby anyway! it's my favorite spot in the whole city, I had to take her.

then we walked down spring garden road. a book store caught our eye. she got seconds by Brian Lee O'Malley, and she also bought me a book on foraging mushrooms. it's illustrated, and local specific, so maybe I'll get to see some out in the wild? it's such a nice gift.

then we talked about all the things we could do, and veevee said she wanted to go to a park. the bus ride was long, and when we got there it was muddy, and it was cold.

then we sat on a bench together and I sobbed into her chest. it was the best cry I've ever had. she gives such good hugs.

today was really, really lovely in ways that I'm not sure I can fully express. I guess I can start by just talking about what happened?

it was a slow morning. we got to cuddle in bed for a long time, I got to make her breakfast, and we watched breaking bad together.

god I love being a girl. life is harder in a lot of ways but I wouldn’t give up how I feel overall for the world. Nobody put me back into that hole I was rotting in i’m finally LIVING

Veevee thinks garlic fingers are okay! Yay!

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💿what if his name was Walter wipe and instead of meth he sold poop

A small deer plushie holding a roll of string under its arm and a threaded sewing needle in the other, there's a small satchel on her shoulder too containing probably anything else she might need to repair a plushie The deer has visible stitches all over her, an embroidered image of a Christmas pine tree decorating its belly, as well as two big patches of fur around it's wrists, Its legs appear to be held on with buttons near its thigh

Little plushie doctor who helps patch up any of her fellow toys in need.

Doodled this one night after seeing a post on Tumblr by user soft--dogs of a little deer doll they were making.

I don't know if it's eating an entire jar of pickles in about four hours or getting on my knees to beg for an Oreo like a dog but I fear there may be something wrong with me. like, not in a feeling bad way. I just don't think this is the correct way to be by most measures. 🖐️ (fine)

☔ How did I somehow break the bottom of a pickle jar? It's been leaking juice into the fridge for hours. It smells awful.

Extra 2 - Mall's music room #yumenikki #ゆめにっき

Veevee likes my bruschetta!! 🥞 yay :D

please please please tell me they didn't schedule me for the 22nd PLEASE they didn't have that week on file when I put in for it so I didn't know I had to! if it's too late maybe I can just call in sick the day of? or lie about an appointment? they'll never give it to me this late, I can't go in 🖐️

This one woke up in the arms of a woman it loves... what a wonderful gift! This week is going to be truly amazing... 💖

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I'm tempted to get a burger or something... 🥞 but I saw them cleaning up, and I don't wanna be that customer that orders something when you're closing. besides, there's that sandwich!

nervous... 🥞 my phone says it can last until the morning, but can I trust that? what if it does and Veevee gets here and I don't know where to meet her?

bweh, I'm being anxious again. it's just my excitement to see her playing tricks on my body. I'll be fine, I'm sure of it!

bad news! 🥞 the busses stop running after midnight, and don't start again until 5 am. good news though! a taxi to my place should only cost a little over fifty bucks, which could be way way worse. also, there's tons of hotels nearby, and who knows, they might be cheaper!

my phone's at 22%... 🥞 I'm fine waiting this long, of course, but I hope my phone doesn't die! it's how I'm gonna pay for my bus ticket! maybe I can find a charging station...

...do you think Veevee would mind if I ate my sandwich while I wait? I thought it'd be romantic to share, but I'm hungry...

💿airport