Zellfan

Constantly trapped between not wanting to make anyone worry about me and desperately needing someone to ask if I'm okay

Just to be clear, if you support this shit, you are showing hatred and contempt for artists, including the ones in your life

Kinda bored with contemporary romances where one MC breaks up with someone before getting with the other MC, and the ex is like the most evil person ever 🙄
A Disney villain level ex doesn't exactly cause tension over who the MC will choose, especially when they're already broken up by chapter 5...

Me: [telling my husband about how I've been experiencing symptoms of my disability all dau]

Him: Do you think it's a flare up?

Me: [completely genuine] Nah, it's probably unrelated

Him: 🤦‍♂️

Not to sound melodramatic, but hope is painful AF.
Like...I just wanna give up on writing, but I'm apparently physically incapable.
I've spent 20 years cultivating a writing career that has gone NOWHERE, and I just want to stop imagining.

When someone asks me about summer not knowing I live in the PNW and summer is the only season anything is fucking dry

Shout out to all the middle-aged white suburban moms who still rap along to Eminem in their cars after they drop their kids off at school

The sera is not tonin tonight, y'all

People keep trying to talk to me about books or stories and I'm just a blank page. No thoughts, just vibes.
And those vibes are mid at best 😅

Being known as someone who is always reading, always has a book closeby, and is always coming up with stories, and yet no longer writing and being in a huge reading slump feels...weird.

I have no idea how, but I managed to cut one of my toes in a really awkward place and later smash every toe on the opposite foot by dropping a broken cabinet door on it...

One of the interesting things about raising an autistic kid is when I have to explain how and why something is rude, and that just because he is not speaking or emoting as dramatically as someone on TV, does not mean he isn't being rude 😅

I ended up deleting so many of my social media accounts in an effort not to support certain people, and thus took a hiatus from social media.
Now I'm here and I...don't remember how to use social media 😅

Idk what I'm doing with my life besides work and chores

The burnout from trying to be a "real writer" is real.
If anyone needs me, I'm gonna be posting short stories on spooky subteddits whenever it suits me (zero schedule planned).

Omfg, I am right there with you, and it SUCKS.
I hope you're feeling okay.

THIS.
As a non-binary person who happens to have giant anime tiddies, I feel like my gender identity gets dismissed as "femme" more often than I'd like, even when I'm trying to dress androgynously or masc.

Oddly on-point after my last post 😅

As a person with a chronic illness (fibromyalgia) and ADHD, I fluxuate wildly between feeling like I'm getting a lot done and feeling a hint of accomplishment, and feeling like I'm actually just a lazy, awful person and only being able to experience relief after completing a task...

Botanical horror belongs to the gays.

On day 37 of my period.
Someone just end me 😅

As an outdoor educator, I've seen a lot of odd weather, but today is the first time I've seen hail without rain...

Fighting tooth and nail to get even 600 words out for a horror short story I want to write, but I somehow manage to kick out almost 1,000 words on a video essay script 🙄

opening up task manager to scare my pc into compliance

I just overheard someone at the park say, "I don't think there is a political message to Dune," and I about had an aneurism.

Good morning, Bluesky.

Today's going to be rough for a lot of folx, myself included, so be kind to yourself and others. It's okay to ask for some support.

Sending love to everyone. 🫂

I wish I could say that I was shocked or surprised that Elon Musk threw out fucking Nazi salutes during the inauguration today...but I'm not.
I am, of course, disgusted and enraged.
I can't fucking believe these disgusting bastards are in charge of the country.
This is truly the worst timeline.

🫂

Tell me about it! I've lost work because I literally could not get out of my house for two weeks during a particularly bad snow storm (it was straight up not possible), and my boss at the time still expected me to come in, even though I told them what was up AND sent pictures!

Whoa! That's an amazing cover!!