dede 🌸edsky

yes i was gone cuz i was eating BUT NOW IM ON VACATION!!!! LET THE STARVING BEGIN!

"im glad ur happy and motivated to take care of yourself cuz ive only seen you wanting to take care of other people"

my best friend might have cured my lack of joy with myself ngl

when my other ex took it she lost like 30kg in three months (mind u she was still eating like a normal person)

wondering what changes ill have.

im gonna be completely honest. i trust this other medicine SO MUCH that ive been eating like a PIG this last week cuz I KNOW that the first week with the medicine will erase it.

i just LOVE disappearing for like 3 days and coming back posting a billion stuff

at this time tomorrow i'll actually be taking the other medicine... anxiousss

ive been invited by some friends to go to the beach in january. wondering how they will react when I show up 15kg lighter

got "good" grades! 5th semester here I go!

oh she just wants to give me my shit back

very thankful for that cuz idk if i have enough willpower to reject her if she wants to get back together

it's terribleee

woke up with a text from my ex. anxiety thru the roof. and the biggest problem is that shes only going to reply back after noon...

idek what she wants but im anxious nonetheless

ate a whole lotta food and still have fries that im gonna eat later... #noregrets

trynna be negative about smth else that isnt the HUNGER im feeling

oral exams are sm fun but written exams take my joy.

finals week is shit. i stay here doing nothing, scrolling twitter/bsky for an hour and fifteen minutes per class and thats it. the part i hated the most when i was a student. is the part im OBLIGATED to do now cuz UNFORTUNATELY its my job

my deodorant is making me sick. i HATE the smell of deodorant on my nose all the time, its not good. esp male deodorant.

im not even gonna binge... im just... hungry... and my mom isnt ok to cook.... and that burger is fucking delicious.... ill order it and see where we get

and these fuckers arrive late and now i need to WAIT for them to finish their exams so i can go home

plz my vision is with those tiny spots im so hungry

im very very hungry and I think a burger from my favorite place and those damn fries would heal where it hurts

honestly forgot i have something called WORK and CANNOT fast
(not rn, too fat to faint at work bcuz im not eating. it's embarrassing. i prefer eating b4 work.

the obligation of cooking for someone while you fast is smth else...
thank gOD i have my coke zero to help me not go batshit crazy in this house

wishing i had locked in fr in january, but i decided to be an idiot. well, the only thing thats keeping me going is how ive lost 10kg (ik its not much but its a lil bit of progress)

GOOD MORNING Y'ALL!
EITHER WAY ID HAVE TO UPDATE MY CW!!! I LOST!!!!

(maybe I can get to 199 b4 the end of the week

i wish i could share some screenshots of texts from 13 year-old me with yall. that girl was crazyy

(pic of me in my lw)

i know i was not a skinny legend thinspo wow youre so thin but like.... i wonder what she would do if she had the chance to see what our body would look like 9 years after this picture

brb gonna do my weekly "contemplate my life in 2017 when i was at the PEAK of my ed" session

if im under 200lbs by my birthday i'll actually light fireworks cuz its gonna be my lw since idk 2022

id wanna try other low kcal recipes but i don't have tIMeeeeeee

plz god i want this semester to end soo baddddddd

hey so natural yogurt and lowkcal jam is a fucking hit. 10/10 no doubtssss