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When it comes to this entire post, i wasn't thinking about any of it, i'm upset (mostly with myself) and i was just gonna vanish.

I don't know how to argue my case anymore, i know i did this the worst way but i keep making more mistakes and i don't know how to convey it's not intentional.

I'm not saying i don't deserve backlash, i'm just trying to say i'm sorry, i know i fucked up and that i will never even think about doing a sexually adjacent joke ever again because that's the best way to stop from making more mistakes i'm too stupid to notice before it's too late.

It really wasn't, i tried to explain after that i was making a joke about a strangulation fetish that i, admittedly, worded very poorly to say the least and i just did not see it.

People who know me know i've got learning disabilities and i've prone to literally not seeing what's in front of me.

As i've said, i didn't realise what the joke was being taken as vs how i was intending, ever since it was spelled out for me i've done nothing but apologise.

I know people don't care, are going to say i think rape jokes are funny when i don't and are saying i'm making excuses but i can't defend it

If i'm not aware of what i'm saying and thus not saying anything at all, then i literally can't say anything in fear of saying something upsetting, right?

Like, again, i'm sorry but i'm flawed and i can only try and not make the mistakes again, like, i'm not gonna make any jokes of it's type again.

And at this point, i know nobody is willing to accept that no matter what.

My best bet, is as you said, to stop talking about it but going forward, to stop making any kind of joke that can be misinterpreted in a way that i didn't intend it.

All i can say is sorry and not make more mistakes

I really don't even see that though, i've literally spent the entire time since it was pointed out to me kicking myself for NOT seeing that.

But i dunno how to get that through to anybody at this point, i don't have the ability to to make the argument without leaning on "I have mental disabilities"

So like any post i send your way then

I did???? I don't remember ever doing that but i really don't mean to

Also as i said in the reply to Carly, i didn't even realise i'd inferred a rape joke until it was pointed out to me and i've done nothing but feel horrible ever since, i immediately backed down when it was explained to me

I'm not trying to rally anybody, i'm just informing people i wanted to step away but i do see why people say this and it wasn't intended this way, i

I also have tried my best to explain it, without shying away from it, i have problems but i'm not trying to use that as an excuse either

Again, i'm not even defending myself but if you gotta keep on rounding people up to beat on me some more than go for it.

I'm pretty sure i can't feel much worse than i currently do

If that's not enough, i dunno what else i gotta do to make you happy.

Hell, i'm not even trying to do that, i just want people to understand i'm REALLY not doing this on purpose, i'm a fuck up, i've got problems and i can only do my best here.

On top of that posting the screenshots of the things i've said when i've not tried to hide from them just comes across as telling me that you've just been waiting for a chance to make me feel more miserable than i already am.

I've done nothing but be sorry and i'm not saying "tee hee whoops"

I'm trying to say sorry, i'm trying to not let my depression convince me disappear off the face of the earth.

But it's hard when you, somebody never interacts with me even when i do with you, is suddenly invested in making me feel like the worst person on earth.

Since i realised what it is that people were saying, i've done nothing but try to own it.

But the more i try to own it the more of a piece of shit you want me to know i am and the more i'm being accused of faking it for sympathy.

I didn't even see the problem, after it was spelled out for me then i was shocked because i didn't even consider it to be seen that way and i'm trying to own my mistake but i dunno, i don't think that's what people want from me now

I'm being told to delete, i should probably just disappear to be honest.

I never wanted to make people upset but if that's what i'm achieving then maybe this is what i should do.

This isn't a woe is me but i won't defend myself, if this is how you view me then i won't try and say otherwise.

The first time was ignorance and i tried to explain that but it's up to you to believe me on that front, I'm sorry again for that though.

No, this is my fault, i made a joke, people didn't like it and i didn't understand the issue until it was too late

I can't be here now, i'm a fuck up and a failure

I made a joke, people took it as a rape joke when it wasn't intended that way, i didn't understand they saw it as such and defended it.

Then when i finally realise i apologise and try to explain but people just hate me now so i'm gonna just deactivate soon

I'm a fuck up and so this is for the best

As i've said, it was a dumb joke i made extremely poorly and if i thought about it better i would have worded it entirely different.

Me defending it was because i didn't SEE it the way you did and again, for that, i apologise.

I'm just gonna drop the whole thing here, i hope you understand where i'm coming from.

I wasn't making a rape joke? Some people in relationships have a strangulation fetish, i don't personally get it but i do know OF it.

If the wires have been crossed because of that then i really am sorry for not being more clear, i REALLY wasn't going for "Lol rape funny"

Ok, look, no offense? But you're bypassing the joke just so you can take offence to something.

You don't find it funny? Fine, that's acceptable but don't go painting me with THAT kind of brush because of it.

I'm alarmed that anybody thinks i'm being serious when i say this 😑

Explain why she let it happen so long before she stabbed him though, no no, that was foreplay.

Trust me, i'm an expert in their relationship 😌

Due to recent events:

The lack of consent is what really got Ada going on though!

Literally just the gif form of... (Please don't censor it again Bluesky, although that would be funny)

For the most part they outright avoid me too and the ones who do engage always do it on burner accounts.

It's almost like they have no backbone or something 🤷