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he came after me to get my number

i feel so defensive and so oppositional lol

“i want to break up” “i don’t wanna be in a relationship” girls when it comes time to eat a whole 雞排 and crochet while watching their man absolutely EVISCERATE all the other guys on the soccer field

is it possible to forget how in love you are with someone you never think of anymore

He listens to jay shetty

my man my man my man my man

“Do you guys remember white Rachel but she’s Guatemalan?”
“Is her dad in jail?”

i tell you i’ll give you something to write about when you’re away at camp

think of me

come here

i was dancing all over that late night park grass, memorizing the dew with the heels of my feet. i kept saying i have to go but one last thing. sitting with my knees up on the curb with you making breakfast sausage states and states away

you look at me like you’ll never stop — the deer in me recognizes you … the way love opens us up to other loves … and meeting you was a miracle i never felt worthy of …

once you start asking that kind of question you’re already cooked

the way this feeling elongates time and makes me experience it all. 14 hours of it and i’ve done so much sitting by its side, feeding it steaks and raspberries and Sour Patch kids

i have this urge to write about 2012 and anachronistically hang pearls around its neck

i need to be around other urgencies i hate this honestly cognitive dissonance sucks

I’m so lucky with you…… I can’t comprehend it :-(

the possibility of both drifting into and away from various selves like old clothing — casings

can’t get married until i’ve had at least one drunken hookup with a dear friend

i didn’t know my bestfriend loved me until this weekend, hearing her talk about me with a girl we just met

you should go ahead and try to

wrote A a lewd poem this morning. i’m not sure yet if i forgive him for only writing about sex. the boy from the poem left me a voicemail

come here

who was it who said pain is how we find our shape

saw the hockey cheerleaders and played cards against humanity in a brewery with friends. went to church and felt so full. dancing in my tights on the hardwood floors in my living room and installing rust to make personal technology

i kind of fucked up my life to the point where crying feels like coming home, pain from a lover feels like i’m getting closer to the truth of the world

Happy new year I love software again

i cut my dad’s hair this morning. wrote an essay on the plane; the right people read it. got home and felt like shit so i turned all the lights on and took pics in my dark red lace bra and new eyes. ate chinese food on the floor, went SUPER BASSing with my friends. took the last bus home🤍💌

once again flying around persimmons and lamb chops. this year i am going out with a group for the very first time for nye! i have all this fear i don’t know what to do with

these are the best days of the whole year wow