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So I've been detransitioned for 2 years and I mostly did it out of safety but I've reached the point where I genuinely feel a deep longing in me everytime I think about transitioning and its so overwhelming I know I need to do it and soon

ICE isn't new, at least not in the sense of their actions. ICE is a direct result of centuries of normalizing violence as a means of "law and order" towards the proletariat and marginalized groups.

ICE isnt a unique evil, its just another manifestation of previous cuts.

Do y'all ever wonder about how Policing began? Because the concept of Prisons and Police havent been here since the start.

Police and Prisons came from slave catching, from colonial occupation, from state sanctioned militaries enforcing the will of the ruling class.

ICE abuse and violence isn’t starting from scratch.

ICE officers aren’t new grads from ICE school.

ICE abuses immigrants, because US law enforcement abuses residents.

ICE facilities do human rights abuses because US jails and prisons do.

The reality is ICE is acting on policies and behaviors that have been foundational of Policing since the beginning of Policing, back when they were still slave catchers and colonial occupying armies. ICE would not be here without years of normalizing state violence.

MOVE bombing? 2020 BLM movement? Haymarket Affair? The assassination of Fred Hampton? Kent State? The Gas Riots?

Its all the same all the way down. They may all use a different name but their actions and their purpose is the same and they collaborate together because of that.

I really wish liberals would stop ignoring the genuine harm Police have done in favor of trying to make ICE look worse. You cant spell Police without ICE. Both are institutions built on violently enforcing the will of the bourgeoisie and both actively act the same.

i mean, real feds call for backup & THEN they escalate or idk have they not burned enough children alive or merc'd any anarchists, abolitionists or Black liberationists for people to remember how all cops including federal ones are

Chasers hate me bc they expected an uwu bottom boypussy haver and instead got a sadist top tdick haver

Idk im not against Nihilism for the questions it brings but through bettering myself, learning history of movements etc. Ive begun to have hope again and see that a better world is possible and in a way its made my activism and personal life better.

And i am dealing with the consequences of that. I lost time to myself and my depression and I am finally in a place where I dont feel like everything is ending. Ive been bettering myself financially and mentally and physically and still Doing Anarchy

I am at an age I never thought id reach, and altho life isnt exactly sunshine and rainbows I realize I am in the future I told myself wasn't real. I am actively living in the period that past me thought wasn't a reality.

I slacked off in personal relationships, at work, and with my own health bc I didnt believe in the concept of a Future. It was the ideological equivalent of not brushing my teeth bc I didnt think id be alive to deal with the consequences and now here I am

I didnt think there was a future for Me, and so when I read theory that said "there is no future" I embraced that quickly and began to act in ways that were detrimental to my future

"We are all fucked and we are dying the world is dying abandon hope and submit yourself to eternal rage against all who opposes Anarchy" on repeat for months while I was in the lowest points of my life was genuinely kinda self sabotaging

Although I think Nihilist anarchism brings up great questions and criticisms of the left and Anarchy as a whole, my Nihilism was directly linked to my depression

The Nazi shit on Grok IS THERE BECAUSE HUMAN BEINGS WITH NAMES AND JOBS AND SALARIES PUT IT THERE ON THE ORDERS OF ELON MUSK, THE WORLD'S RICHEST MAN!!!!!!

Moreover, ICE must be destroyed

We HAVE to stop talking about these large language models as if they're alive and can actually say and do things independently. Grok did not "turn into a neo-Nazi" it was PROGRAMMED TO SPIT OUT NEO-NAZI PROPAGANDA. THAT IS MUCH MUCH WORSE!!!!!!!!

Moreover, ICE must be destroyed

This is a homophobic crackdown by the CCP entirely in line with its reactionary politics

Moreover, ICE must be destroyed

bluesky is really funny bc ill get 2 of your posts back to back and one is "Here's the most horrible news you've ever seen, we have to do something" and the other is "who want me 🥺"

a sticker that says "the psl (party of socialism and liberation) ate my bussy and then called the cops on me and then shot my dog"

snagged this dope sticker at the anti-fascist art event yesterday🔥

Twitter may be more active but I cant stand being on a primarily right wing application. Sure bluesky is neoliberal but its better than the AI Hitler app

Finding the will to live only to immediately fall flat on my face bc of the economy and political climate is irony at the extreme

Anyone who wears an "Alligator Alcatraz" merch should be shown life threatening levels of hostility and I'm NOT in Minecraft

Love to be a second class citizen who can legally be discriminated against!!!!

Moreover, ICE must be destroyed

This is so fucking evil it makes me tear up

Moreover, ICE must be destroyed

Unironically to answer your question, The Dugout Podcast is decent. They themselves arent afropessimists but they often discuss it alongside black anarchism. They have an episode titled "Afro-Pessimism Explained" from March of '24.

This feels like when a suburban parent is trying to get along with their very emo child