Shanzi

I’d pay real doll hairs for that!!!

20 yrs apart. She left home at 17. I never did cause my 18-parents getting ill window was not huge. We have sooo much to compare

I feel like we’re getting into the weeds of it now…

First time big sis and I’ve gotten drink together.

I could take a moment for a lot of things, but tonight…

This space in time is for you, Daniel. It’s been 25+ years since we got the call that you were gone. Your aunkle knew before the phone rang, though. You were always supposed to be my fave baby boy.

The most upsetting thing about my hysto was…

It changed my bellybutton. I was kinda mad at my surgeon. Ya couldn’t have shifted that incision down a millimeter?

My boys are strictly indoor cats, but their sister is a community cat who stays on my property. She’s about to be an indoor princess, though!

Shout out to my local humane society and spay clinic! I just got two of my five felines vaccinated and chipped for free 💜💜💜

Or the time she wanted to “devour an entire animal in one sitting” so we took her out for Ethiopian and watched her murder some whole fried fish 😂💜😂💜

Heh. I remember that time she, bilingual goddess, secured us VIP treatment and *real* Chinese food one night. We both ended up with the MSGitis and it was glorious!

Oops. There’s that TikTok minefield when you’re scrolling and suddenly looking at a face that’s been gone for a year and a half but you still remember kissing that forehead for the last time. Oof. Hey, grief.

LOL oh, wow!

I had a fibroid that took up SO much space, and made its presence known so often that I named it. When it was gone, I could still feel all its moods. I also would get those deep er… release feelings and spasms like menstruation. On the dot. For years.

I honestly wouldn’t be surprised. Brains be weird! I had a phantom uterus for years.

Okay, now that the migraine stopped eating my brain - how many? 😂

🤣💜

Y’all ain’t lived til your granny’s got you snuggled on a hotel bed while there’s more steel out than a car factory…

Heh.

That time the family wedding in the sundown town started with every adult in one hotel room, cleaning guns and taking inventory on ammo. Yes, even my mayo mama.

LOL what, you mean you don’t have a magic wand to bibbity-bobbity-get it together?

That’s a very wise move lol

Some days, you’re just minding your own business and someone puts on Portishead. Guess my brain is just Roads now.

Doing a lil Snoopy dance over here! Yay HOME

That’s wild. I just realized I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve had to call 911.

Hung out with a friend tonight while a storm was a’brewing. We sounded like a messed up percussion section with all the snaps, crackles and pops.

This is the best proof of life pic ever. Cat husband and the queen were on duty! 😍

The past two years have really revealed who I can and can’t count on IRL. It would be depressing if the ones who stayed weren’t just fucking amazing. Who needs fair weather friends? Psh.

passing was like trying to get blood from a stone…

Hell. I will NEVER forget walking with my sister, and her bursting into tears while telling me how sorry she was for not understanding. I have been the family Cinderella for 40 years, and yes, the one time I needed them to step up for me, take over so I could go be with the woman I love as she was

It’s been interesting to see my family start really understanding who I am lately.

They didn’t have a choice. Every mask I ever had on was obliterated when my bestiewife passed last year, and I don’t plan on putting them back on. I could never disrespect her memory by crawling back behind them.

I cannot do another fucking summer down here. My whole personality is POTS atm

My kingdom for a single level home…

No need to until you have the urge/time/brain.