Ghost (GoFundMe in pinned)

I miss my friends

Sketch of my human gijinka of Vivian from Paper Mario: The Thousand-Year Door. She wears a purple, pink, and orange cardigan, a white collared shirt, a pink tie, a pink sweater vest, black jeans, and a pink checkerboard skirt. Here, she is seen posing in a very cutesy manner.

magma doodle

good lord

felt like redesigning cabba, caulifla, and kale from dragon ball yesterday
and then i decided to try drawing their normal designs first

Icy Commute 8”x10” oil
Available on my website.

to everyone I've hurt, I'm sorry. please forgive me.

Today I've decided I'm leaving the internet, for real. I've unfriended everyone on discord and I do not plan on ever returning after someone made a credible threat on my life.

Thank you all for being here, but, I can't do this anymore. Stay safe, live your life to the fullest.

Marco Rubio is reportedly saying Maduro will stand trial in US courts.

Which means it’s now the US administration’s position that US courts can hold foreign presidents, but not the US president, accountable for crimes.

The Danny Devito Egg In This Trying Time meme, with the egg replaced with one of my prints. This is fine. It's all fine. #Art #ArtSky#SpéirGorm #SpéirGhorm #Ireland

Artists as the world crumbles around us

I started cutting myself again

modder trainwiz has once again uploaded a mod of thomas the tank engine invading an elder scrolls game onto nexusmods, with everyone's favourite tank engine coming to morrowind after being featured in... TikTok video by Game Central

“I fundamentally do not view toy company CEOs or media CEOs as people” www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrKAB6UW/

episode 048

you need to manage your mental health better starting with your sleeping schedule or else it'll be extremely damaged.

Dark Path

episode 118

I remember when my dad tried to sell me for drugs probably once

I do understand: you want permission. There’s a machine in the corner wrapped in human skin that makes things out of shit and blood to look like whatever you want (as long as you don’t look too closely). You gave one to your teacher and they didn’t notice. Your boss told you to use it after they laid off half the team and it was fine. You fed one to your kids and they liked it. You want to know you can use it sometimes without me thinking less of you. You don’t need me to believe it’s useful, you just want me to be polite about it.

Great post about generative AI. Happy Holidays. Don't say I never gave you anything. anthonymoser.github.io/writing/ai/h...

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*when I say a lot I mean I've forgiven some of my friends who were personally involved which was only two people. the rest are fine people who have never done anything wrong.

my personal life bleeds into my online life very often because my daily issues with my family and EVERYTHING ELSE I'VE DISCUSSED still affects me.

I will try to be better towards my friends. it embarrasses me. and they don't deserve that anger and rage I have. nobody does (save for a few)

to everyone I've hurt, I am sorry. but I'm only human, and I'm sorry my issues cause other people grievances. experiencing someone grab my privates and do things to me while being frozen in fear was an extremely traumatizing thing to me and I don't like talking about how much it affects me.

every waking moment in my life, replaying that morning when I was still a toddler. and replaying my abuser having their way with me like a coin operated toy.

it affects me. it haunts me. and rather unfortunately I can't afford to get professional therapy because it would bankrupt me.

I didn't always succeed, especially earlier on. and I'm sorry for that, If I could have been born in a different life circumstance I would have. but, I'm just me.

I'm going to try and work on my own mental health issues but I'm not going to pretend this isn't something I think about-

but what's also a part of my identity is how much I've had to fight the community I was in. how much I had to strongarm the community to do what I wanted. if something does happen to me, I'll at least die with the knowledge I tried to be a good person in spite of what happened to me.

but it was incredibly humiliating as a male to be told by so many people male and female that I deserved it and "was so lucky to have it happen at that age" it was extremely humiliating and incredibly immasculating.

I'm very happy with being female now, it's a part of my core identity.

people said I deserved to have it happen again. two of the people I told my IRL rape about told me they blatantly didn't care (after they asked about it ???) it happened and I should get over myself.

having a grown woman sexually abuse me in public was not only a big reason why I transitioned-

immediately that would pay for medical expenses and a apartment in 24 hours. let's be fucking realistic now lol

my identity is very much stuck in 2010-2014 because those were the most traumatic years of my life. people bullied me relentlessly to the point I tried to commit over it.